Chapter 14
It was a very funny answer when I think about it now.
Even if the greatest wizard ever, Castor, will never be able to create magic to save the dead.
But Felix was very serious at that time, and I wanted to believe what he said.
“Then promise me. When you grow up later, you will bring back my mom.”
I held out my pinky finger to him.
Felix quietly hung his little pinky finger on my finger.
That day, despite my nanny’s worries about catching a cold, I sat in the garden all day looking at the pink roses.
Felix sat next to me and read a book.
We did what we wanted to do silently without talking to each other, but the time was not awkward at all.
The next day, when the magic disappeared after Felix left, the pink rose could not overcome the cold and froze.
Strangely, I was no longer as sad as before when I saw the desolate garden again.
The time he showed me magic was only a day, a day’s fantasy, but the roses I saw that day still remained clear in my memory.
Looking at the garden with only traces of roses left, I realized that Magic can not only hurt people but also give them happiness.
And I also wanted to create Magic that make people happy.
Felix probably will never know for the rest of his life, that I dreamed of becoming a wizard, while looking at him in the garden full of rose scents.
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Felix returned to his accommodation around the time when the sun that went over to the west was shining red and setting.
At that time, I took a nap to the fullest and woke up to play tickling with a cheerful kid.
“Hauhauuuuuuquuuu!”
It was time for the little one to run away from me, drooling with the saliva.
The door opened and Felix came in.
I turned my head, trying not to look at Felix entering the room.
“Elly.”
I heard the voice I hated at this moment right next to me.
I pretend not to hear it, while holding the little boy in my arms.
I know it’s cheap to ignore people, but I couldn’t help it.
“Aren’t you hungry, little boy?”
“Babubuuuuuuu.”
“Elly.”
Felix grabbed my arm gently, turned me around and faced me.
I couldn’t tell what expression he was making.
He was biting his teeth tightly as if he was angry, but the eyes that looked at me looked somewhat uneasy.
“I spoke without thinking.”
He continued in a small voice as if talking to himself.
“I didn’t mean to say you are not good enough to the academy. I know that you try hard to follow practical magic classes. There is no one in the Academy who tries as hard as you,”
I already know that he didn’t mean it.
I also know that he is seriously apologizing in his own way now.
However, the apology did not touch my heart.
I thought my mind was completely relaxed while playing with the kid, but now my mind was still firmly closed.
“What’s the point of saying that now?”
I shook off his hand that held my arm.
“Yeah, I know. You said that because you were worried about me. Even I think that my behavior was ridiculous, so I would have done the same. However, you denied all my efforts with just one word.”
I tried to speak calmly without getting angry, but while speaking I ran out of my breath and my voice went up.
“You wouldn’t have done that if it were you? Right, I guess so. Like you said, you wouldn’t be a hostage even if you were holding a baby, and you would have escaped very easily. But what’s the point? You weren’t there.. You weren’t next to me when I needed you.!”
Felix didn’t respond back and silently listened to my anger.
His expression was consistently serious all the time without showing signs of displeasure.
I kept pouring out my anger at him.
“You just left. You left me and the baby alone and.... left! If you were with me, that wouldn’t have happened. But now....you are angry at me?”
It was a meaningless venting of anger.
There was no reason to be angry at him just because he took the lead first.
But I was angry, I needed someone to vent out my anger, and Felix was the only one in front of me.
“What did you say ‘Did I wanted to die’?..NO.. I did not.. I did that because I wanted to live. You don’t know how scared I was......”
I still can’t forget the eyes that were glowing like a beast filled with madness while holding me with the sword.
The wound was healed and there was no pain, but the feeling of attaching a cold blade to my neck was still vivid.
The shadow of death that came to me and the little boy still seemed to be around us.
“Do you know how scary it was.....!?”
I ended up screaming.
I didn’t feel like crying, but tears poured out without
notice.
“Mamamuuuuuuuu!”
The little boy struggled and cried more sadly than ever, perhaps because he felt my fear together.
I was even more saddened by the little boy’s crying, so I also cried like a child.
Felix comforted the little boy in his arms on behalf of me, who was busy crying and was unable to soothe the child.
“Elly..22”
“Felix...you....Bad... Bad guy, you’re my friend. How could you say that.... how could you leave me, how could you....”
“I’m sorry.”
While crying, the two words came clearly into my ears.
Even though it wasn’t a very loud voice.
I stopped talking and looked at Felix.
However, the emotions did not calm down easily, so my shoulders were shaking and my lips trembled.
Felix spoke more quickly this time in a louder voice.
“I’m sorry, Elly.... I’m really sorry.”
When did Felix ever say sorry to me?
I’ve never seen him apologize not only to me but also to others.
Felix surprisingly did not make things to apologize for, even though he had an irritating personality that only 1 knew.
However, I felt that he would never apologize to anyone in his life.
That Felix was apologizing to me.
It’s not an indirect apology, but in direct words
“I’ll never ever say the words that will hurt you.”
I had no idea how to react to him looking at me with a serious expression.
I was so surprised that I couldn’t even cry anymore.
Trubbed my cheeks and eyes full of tears with the back of my hand and thought for a while about what to say.
“Apologize to the little boy, too.”
I muttered quietly after thinking.
Felix’s serious expression briefly collapsed when the name of the little boy, who had nothing to do with what we were talking about so far, came out.
I brought back the little boy who stretched his arms to me and patted him on the back.
“Mamuuuuuuu”
The child’s struggle weakened little by little.
“I’m glad the kid didn’t understand when you said, I wasn’t a real mother, but if he did, he would have been hurt.”
I wiped the teary eyes of the little boy with my sleeves.
“He must have been filled with anxiety since he was already separated from his parents, but how sad would it be to hear your words? For whatever reason, now we’re like the child’s guardian.”
“Bababuuuu.”
The child buried his face in my arms again as if he had grumbled, perhaps he understood what I was saying.
The warm face and hands wriggling in my arms are now familiar.
Even if he couldn’t talk, the kid must have missed his parents a lot.
No matter how well we try to be nice, it will be nothing compared to the affection of his mom and dad.
Of course, at first, I was confused and wondered why this happened to me.
I didn’t feel burdened by the little boy’s presence in a few days, perhaps because I had grown attached to him.
Felix, who was staring at the little boy while I patted him on the back with sincerity, opened his mouth.
“I’m sorry to you, too, little one.”
The little boy looked up and looked at Felix.
Felix lightly messed up the little boy’s hair.
“I didn’t mean you could do something wrong. I’ll take good care of you. Like Elena said, we are your guardians now.”
“Dabuuuuu.”
The little boy blinked and looked at Felix’s face.
Felix lifted the corners of his mouth slightly, trying to reassure him.
Since Felix usually doesn’t smile, the little boy, who looked at the smile that looked like a devil’s smile, buried his head deep into my arms again.