244 Lesson Six: Lous Second Brothers Depression(1/2)
"Ugh......" he shouted pitifully, Digga collapsed to the ground.
Darum-Lou, who was carrying lumber along with him, is about to fall over himself, accidentally honking his tongue.
"Don't make a sound with this weight. Are you still a man by the forest?
Even if I scold him like that, he's still sneering and breathing.
They're really exhausted, even though it hasn't been long since they started working yet.
Where Darm-Luu tried to give a further voice, he was called from behind with a low voice.
"He's Lou's second brother. If that happens, I'm not a man who moves even with a kick. You need to rest until he can move."
He is a young man of the Dom family, wearing Gibba's skull over his head.
The man, along with Dodd, once Digga's brother, was carrying lumber that had just been cut down.
Your Dodd also has a lot of sweat on his square face and is likely to fall asleep.
Time is the 31st of the Blue Moon.
It was the third day that Darum-Lou came to this northern settlement.
Diga and Dodd are now deprived of their liberty for having once escaped Dom's settlement. This is how we find ourselves in the restoration of Dom's house, which was burned down by Zazz-Sung during the day, and in the settlement of Zazza at night, we are still to be watched along with the sinner Zulo-Sung.
Both legs are wrapped in short leather strings so that they cannot run.
A beard of impenetrability was creeping on his face, and the flesh, which was once bigger than Dalm-Lou's, seemed to have squeezed much smaller.
My eyes don't have a vibe.
The hunter's clothes, horns and fang necklaces have been stripped off, and the outfit is thinly dirty.
It was truly a narrow, seemingly narrow style that seemed unlikely to the people by the woods.
"... because we don't eat dinner well, we're going to expose ourselves to such pity."
Saying, Darum-Lou lowered his hips over the wood that fell to the ground.
"If you can't help yourself, eat dried meat. I'll keep your share."
Even so told, Digga only shook her head without force.
So again, Darum-Lou remembers his anger.
"This job was imposed on you for your sins. Don't you feel like redeeming your sins?
That's how he just roughed up his voice a little bit, and Digga held his head in.
Darum-Lou got ridiculous and took a scratch of dried meat instead of Diga.
It is dried meat entrusted by the men of the Dom family.
The intense smell of its dried meat irritated Darum-Lou again.
What an unsavory dried meat.
The intolerable smell falls through the back of my nose.
But - until not even the full moon, Darum-Lu should have eaten this kind of dried meat every day without any doubt.
(Damn, he's an abominable one...)
A white coloured face floats in the back of his brain.
Because of that abomination, Darum-Lou became frustrated with the smell of dried meat, and it was such a human being that it came to an end.
No, it wasn't just dried meat that didn't taste good.
Supper, for example, can be worse.
Cook the messily chopped giva meat with the vegetables or poitan, or in a hot iron pan. What giva meat not draining blood was so unsavory - and the nights that came to this settlement three days ago, for example, were Darum-Lou, who was to be stunned from the bottom of his heart.
(No, but Rayna would have rubbed a better meal, even with Giva's meat that wasn't draining blood)
Whether it's fire, vegetable selection, or meat cutting - anyway, I don't think it's ever been so bad.
But yeah, that's why it didn't matter what happened.
Even yesterday's meeting with the nobles didn't get a convincing story after all.
Graph-Zaza and others returning from the scene appeared more grumpy than they had been before the talks.
That means - for the time being, Zuro-Sung and others still need surveillance and protection, too.
It was Darum-Lou's own will that decided to head out to this northern settlement.
Since we cannot break the hand of the men to the guards forever, and we wish to seek help in the settlement of Luu, which is in the period of rest, because Graf-Zaza said so, Darum-Lu made him volunteer himself.
Ray and Rutim's men, who came with Darum-Lou, keep an eye on Zuro-Sung in the settlement of Zaza.
I'm sick and tired of just thinking about spending the day in the house, etc., so Darum-Lou got a job working in Dom's settlement watching these Diggas.
Dom's men are leaving as many as just now for hunter's work.
I'm watching Diga and Dodd along with that man, and I'm encouraging him to restore the burned-down house - on the third day, Dalm-Lou was about to have a bottom of patience.
(Has it been wasted to get here?)
I think so, looking down at Digga's back, where he went powerless.
Wouldn't knowing the weakness of these pitiful men help me to know my weakness - Darum-Lou, with such thoughts, had gone far away from his family to places like this?
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I wonder when the hell I've stepped off the road, Darum-Lou wonders.
Until just recently, Darum-Lou should have been able to live without any negligence.
Surrounded by his beloved family, he lived his pride as a people by the woods, without any difficulty. If there was only one dissatisfaction, that was about making the Sung family humans sarcastic as chieftaincy muscles with no pride or anything.
But if the Lew family and their families accumulate more power, they can defeat the Sung family in the near future. The previous parents were to give their souls back to the woods in carelessness and anger, but if Donda, the father who inherited the seat of the parents, he should have been able to restore order by the woods.
Darum-Lou loves his father Donda more than anyone else.
The bravest man by the woods is his father, Donda, and only the Lew family has the power to debate the Sung family. As the son of such a father, he was most proud to have been born as one of the Lu family, and Darm-Lu was able to live his life to date.
The first reason that it collapsed - or was it still two years ago, when I met Ai-Fa?
But I don't think I had to disturb my mind so much then.
A daughter named Ai-Fa, whose youngest sister, Rimi, and eldest, Ziva, were on edge, woke up with the elder brother of the Sung family, who had lost all her family. Donda, my father, who heard about it, offered Ai-Fa his dowry to Dalm-Lou, and he turned it down.
At that time, I didn't think anything of it.
It's just that I thought she was a stupid woman.
Along with his father Donda and his brethren, Darum-Lou also visited Fa's house. My daughter named Ai-Fa was so beautiful, but she wore the clothes and swords of a hunter while she was a woman, and said she was willing to live as a hunter from now on - such absurdity was stated.
I thought you said your age was only 15.
Its eyes did shine a strong light that even the women did not think, but with its fine arms it could sift a knife properly. It's just a waste of your life. Even though it's beautiful, I guess it's stupid. I wish this fool would be here.
To Darum-Lou, I just thought so.
But two years after that.
From now on, about a month ago.
Darm-Luu was to be reunited with Ai-Fa in the settlement of Luu.
My youngest sister, Rimi, said to the people of Pha's house, "What number do you want to give them to make a meal for Ziva?"
A foreign-born man invited by Ai-Fa as a family member of Fa's house can magically make a delicious meal, he said.
I thought it was stupid.
With that, I didn't think Ziva could regain the power to live.
It's sad that Ziva dies, but the oldest has lived longer by the woods than anyone else and has kept his job.
On the day when Ziva's soul is summoned to the forest, I still wonder if I can stop myself from crying, but no matter how sad it is, it is the stewardship of this world that does not have a lasting human life expectancy. It is the reason laid down by the forest. If I can't lift it up, I think I'm just going to taste the extra pain.
But my father Donda accepted Limi's words.
So Ai-Fa was supposed to take a family member he didn't know how to handle and visit Luu's settlement.
For the first time in two years, Ai-Fa had grown into a more beautiful crowd.
And yet, every fist was as tall as it was, and its supple body was full of strength as a hunter.
This would certainly allow me to work as a hunter full of them.
And in fact, in his neck were heaps of fangs and horns lowered.
But - Darum-Lou, he's been disturbed.
Sure, maybe I could have gotten my powers as a hunter.
But I just think I'm wasting my life doing things like continuing to work as a hunter on my own without the help of my family or family.
If Ai-Fa did a lot of kids as a bunch of women and raised it up as a fine hunter, shouldn't he be able to hunt Gibba with stronger powers?
It was only touching the eclampsia that it welcomed exotic men and others who had no power as hunters as family members and had a parental aspect.
So Dharm-Lou was to curse Ai-Fa that night he was reunited.
It was up to me to let my emotions make me curse as much as I could think of.
So, be your own daughter-in-law - I asked him again.
But Ai-Fa, just returning a cold glance, never responded to Dalm-Lou.
Even the raw white family came to eat at me.
In the middle of the settlement of Lou, he was not without a sword, yet Ai-Fa and his family were not at all afraid of the wind of Dalm-Lou.
"Now it's time for me to be left alone in Ai-Fa's house. Until just five days ago, those Kamans were protecting me! He was hunting for Gibba by himself and protecting Kamado by himself! You've been doing all the men's and women's work all by yourself, haven't you? Can I imitate you like that!?
With a raw white face - Asta at Fa's house was barking like that.
An exotically born, weaker man, who seems weaker than the woodland ladies, has slammed those words on Darum-Lou as if he were a hunter, burning both eyes.
You're going to sell the fight to Lew's house, Darm-Lew gave it back.
I even thought if you were going to make any more jokes, I'd rip that mouth to your ear -.
But Asta of Pha's house, instead of being frightened, has gone on to lay more words with a laid back face.
"That's why I'm not complaining about the people by the woods or about Luu's house. I'm telling you. Darum-Lou, I'm telling you personally. Don't be rude to my benefactor, Ai-Fa."
The words poked strangely into my chest.
I don't know what upset me so much. It's just that Darum-Lou can't say anything back or pull out a knife while he's about to blind himself to anger.
Then Asta of Fa's house was to play the role of picking up the Kamadu number of Rutim's feast, starting business in Inn Town and elsewhere, and finally uncovering the Sung family's evil deeds.
In the meantime, what would I have done?
I didn't do anything.
I was just holding on to my job as a hunter.
Of course, I'm a hunter, so nothing is wrong.
He suffered a terrible wound to save Shin-Lu, a branch of the family, and was also to be off work as a hunter for a while, but then he was able to work the same way he did again.
As a hunter, as a people by the woods, I walk a life without shame in anything.
But...
At no time did Asta's words in Fa's house take her head off.
"I'm telling you. Darum-Lou, I'm telling you personally."
What is an individual?
Sure, I am one person named Darum-Lou, but I am a people by the woods and a second brother to the Lou family. It is not forever for those facts to peel off Darm-Luu. I didn't even think it would make a lot of sense to think about it separately.
But when I look at the people of Fa's house, my chest is strangely noisy.
Whilst a crowd, Ai-Fa performs her work as a hunter, and while a man, Asta performs her work as a number.
Though that was not the only contraindication by the woods, I think it would be an act contrary to years of learning.
The women should have no children, and the men should hunt for Gibba as much as they can.
If we don't, order by the woods won't be preserved.
If all the women live as hunters and abandon their work as children, the clan will perish.
Such a thing could not be tolerated.
At present, however, Moribe is about to transform greatly by the work of the Pha's men.
Asta of Fa's house began selling Guiba dishes in the Inn Town, saying she wanted to bring abundance to the woodland, and so on, and that's just bearing fruit.
Moreover, the Sung family was to be destroyed by Asta's prophecy.
Afterwards, even those such as Kamua-Josh, who appeared by the woods on the fringe with the Pha's, are about to be revealed, even the old evils of Zazz-sun and the nobles.
My brother Giza and others, I think, are greatly confused.
Because jizza weighs more than itself in terms of code and order.
But my father Donda seems to acknowledge the power of the Pha's, and in fact, it also feels that the people by the woods are moving in the right direction.
But still - Darum-Lou wanted Ai-Fa to live as a lady.
So, compared to the power of the harvest festival, it was decided to challenge Ai-Fa.
When I lost to myself, I asked him to become a family member of the Lew family, and I put such conditions in place.
If you live at least as a family of the Lew family, you will be less at risk of decay into the woods. As we lived surrounded by so many human beings, if we could find meaning and value in our raw life as women - it was done with one hope.
But Darum-Lou has been defeated by Ai-Fa.
Soon, Ai-Fa was growing up as a stronger hunter than he was.
I don't care what I raise anymore, I guess I can't move my Ai-Fa heart myself.
That's how Darum-Lou came to this northern settlement.
How have I become so weak - to know it?
(but everything seemed to be in vain)
Looking down at Diga with her back bent like an old man, I think.
These guys, far beyond the imagination of Darum-Lou, were dull and fragile.
While I was born into the chieftaincy muscle, I thought knowing Digga and Dodd, who couldn't have any power as a single person, might not help clear up some of my doubts - but to the wretched men so far, I wasn't likely to be able to overlap myself or anything like that.
"Oh, you look bored, Darum-Lou"
Voices containing laughter are called from across.
Looking back, the Dom women with the big wood were staring at themselves.
This is just Dom's head sister.
"A man named Digga works faster than a young child. If you had followed such a man, you would have had no choice."
You were absolutely right, so Darum-Lou makes me nod back "Oh".
But the women, named Lem-Dom, shifted their gaze to Digga, with so much contempt as no more.
"Totally, pathetic. How dare you make such a big deal out of yourself as a hunter by the woods? If I were you, I would have lost my life in disgrace."
Even when the women slapped him in the mouth like that, Diga didn't even try to look up.
Rem-dom shrugged his shoulders arrogantly and walked away with a powerful foothold.
(How can these guys live so far without pride or anything)
Grasping the stinky dried meat, Darum-Lou could only breathe deeply to exhale his anger.
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That's two days later.
On the night of the fifth day of coming to the northern settlement, an intruder came to the settlement of Zaza, which was capturing Zulo-Sung.
Everyone's asleep, it's late at night.
Darum-Lou, who was taking turns taking the day off, was set to jump out with Ray's manly voice.
"A crook! People in town are sneaking in!
followed by a sharp tone of grass whistle.
The doors of the houses everywhere open and the signs of the hunters popping up.
Darum-Lou turned to the men of Rutim, who had instead refrained, before pulling open the door behind him.
The multiple shadows that were nodding in the darkness wake themselves up like a little.
As he explored the signs around him, Darum-Lou lit the candlestick with Lana's leaves.
Zuro-Sung, Diga and Dodd - all three of them left their hands and feet wrecked, and there's no abnormality in the windows with the boards up.
The role of the Dalm-Lu's was to stay away from these people no matter what happened, and to continue monitoring and guarding them.
"Dude... what happened?
Diga asks with a trembling voice.
"I hear someone snuck into the settlement," I just answered.
The next moment - Zulo-Sung - began to groan with a strange voice.
"The nobles of Genos... the nobles have come to take my form!
"Hey, Zuro-Sung -"
"I don't like it anymore! I've only been following my father's word! If that's sin, skin this head off! I give my soul back to the woods!
Stinging like crazy, I punch my head in the wall with cancer.
It was unimaginable frenzy from the appearance of a living corpse during the day.
"Stop it! You're about to be brought to justice!
A hunter of Rutim whispers Zulo-Sung's body in a panic.
"Give me a hand, Dalm-Lou. Let's put our bodies on the pillars."
"Oh."
Originally a big man no less than his father Donda. No matter how thin I was, it wasn't much of a struggle to keep that frenzy down.
Even with the two of us twisting that giant onto the pillar and a round cloth in his mouth to keep his tongue from biting him, Zuro-Sung was still raging and crazy like a giva hung in a trap for a while.
"Even I don't like it anymore... why do we have to look at each other like this..."
And, Digga starts to spill tears in the open.
To that appearance, Darum-Lou was once again engulfed with anger.
"What are you mourning? I'm sure you've committed many sins."
"Because... we were just following the Sung family code..."
He was a face and voice as if he were a toddler.
Really, this man is the same age as himself, and Darum-Lou is so angry to see if he was once the trace of a chief.
This Diga was the most intolerable opponent for Darum-Lou.
This diga, which exposes itself to something more dizzying and crying than Zulo-Sung, who is usually blurred with the eyes of a dead man, with a gloomy face, is most inconsistent with Dalm-Lou's temper.
"Because the Sung family code and the others were wrong, you were to be treated as sinners. Just because you stole the eyes of your compatriots and vandalized Morga's grace and didn't do his job as a hunter, it would be a capital crime if it were"
"But... it was Zazz-Sung who laid down the code... we were just following it..."
"So -" he called, "Darum-Lou was to hold his mouth.
Something caught my mind.
Darum-Lou broke his knee and peered into Diga's crying face.
Digga hurries to lay down her eyes and tries to escape the sight of Darum-Lou.
"He was the eldest brother of the Sung family. Are you sure you didn't have any questions about your life? Haven't you ever questioned such a raw man, who has also hidden the truth from family members like Zaza and Dom and committed numerous major crimes?
"So... because that was our code..."
"That's Zazz-Sung's code of mistakes. You must have understood that it was out of the woodland code, didn't you?
"So, but... the family of the main house and the blood of the branch were all following that code... can't you just betray yourself when those closest to you live by the code...? but if other humans found out we were breaking the contraindications by the woods, everyone in the bloodline could have been skinned off their heads...? We had no choice but to live up to the Zazz-Sung code..."
The more I hear, the more foolish it is.
Still, however, a strange sensation was beginning to spread on Darum-Lou's chest when swollen.
(These are dull, fragile, despicable men. The partitioners would have kept Zazz-Sung's code to protect themselves and their families, while losing hope of living - these guys were laughing even more aggravated over it and seriously spiralling other families hunting for Gibba. The judgment of my father Donda and others, who stipulated that those in the main house also needed punishment to take Mr.)
But - for the Sung people, that was the absolute code.
For the people of the forest, the code of the forest was absolute, and for the Sung people, the code of the Sung family was absolute.
If we don't even think about the difference between right and wrong, what difference does it make there?
What if...
What would have happened if I had been born into the Sung family?
If I were in the same position as Diga, what the hell would have happened?
Until just ten years ago, Zazz-Sung reigned as an absolute chief.
As the grandson of such a Zazz-Sung, he was born and fell as the son of a trumpeted Zulo-Sung - if he had grown up surrounded by those dead-eyed bloodlines, would he have been a human being like he is now?
Would you have been such a proud person to tell Zazz-Sung that this path is the right one, that it could be bladed if it wasn't?
Would I have been able to doubt the teachings of Zazz-Sung, who believed in the teachings of my father Donda absolutely and never doubted them?
To Darum-Lou, I don't know.
And...
If Ai-Fa and Asta in Fa's house, how the hell was it?
If Ai-Fa had been born into the Sung family, what the hell kind of person would he have grown up to be?
If Asta had been picked up by a Sung family person, what the hell kind of path would she have taken?
Those men were turning away from the woodland scriptures.
Being a bunch of women but aspiring to hunters, inviting exotic-born people to their families, doing business in the boarding town - even if they haven't touched on the contraindications by the woods, they are disobedient to the learning. That is why Zaza, Dom, Gene, and other family members, such as Baim, have also disputed the deeds of Fah's house.
But the men of Pha's house still did not seek to bend themselves.
He wants to live righteously as a people by the woods, and he wants to do things that are disobedient to the woods, and yet bring grace to the woods, etc. - so he is on a complicated path.
(If they did, could they have - believed that I was more right than Zazz-Sung and also stumbled through my path?
Ei-Fa may also have been unable to be such a proud person without the presence of the parents of Fa's house.
But that Ai-Fa has the power to live alone. At least there is strength not to be afraid of lonely raw. And I have the arrogance to weigh my mood more than I have learned by the woods.
If I = fa, I might have been able to squeeze my temper to give it up to my evil grandfather or my dumb father.
And it's Asta.
What would have happened if that raw white or not had become the Sung family's family?
Maybe he slapped his busty mouth on the night he was picked up, and he was killed.
No matter how strong you are in the mood, that man doesn't have the power to sift a knife.
But - at least, it wouldn't have extended to imitating, for example, making copper coins for the evil Sung family.
For once, he could have had that inexperienced eldest sister, his youngest brother, and around Tay-Sung on his side, destroying the Sung family from the inside out.
(That's the difference between me and them - is that it?
Under the candlestick fire, Darum-Lou considered it blurry.
If you notice, Diga is shuddering as she turns away.
I guess it's gotten scary because Durm-Luu has always glimmered its side.
Darum-Lou's chest was to be devastated with a passion different from anger.
(Even this guy could have been a person like me if he had been born into the Lou family, or even me, if he had been born into the Sung family, he would have been supposed to look like this)
Darm-Lew closed his eyelids and swallowed down a heavy breath that was about to spill to the bottom of his belly.
I'm weak.
All the power that I possessed was from the outside.
Of course, that's not the wrong power.
For the sake of my family, for the Lew family, for the forest side - I hope that I will continue to use that power correctly.
But.
This must be the power of the Lew family.
It is a power that will be lost if the Lew family is destroyed.
The loss of all families did not result in the loss of the power of Ai-Fa.
I'm sure Ai-Fa, as a man of Fa, could have made the power he had gained as a people by the woods his own strength.
And Asta is also sifting through its power in such a homeland while losing all her family and homeland.
It was the strength and power that Darum-Lou did not have.
That was the difference between me and them.
That's why they're so strong - they're so weak.
(... That's why you're desperate!
Darum-Lou slapped his fist on the furry floor.
Diga screams sadly, "Wow."
So that night, it was intolerably cursory to pass.
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It was only then ten days later that I was able to return to the settlement of Lou.
In the meantime, I was only to spend half a month in a settlement in the north.
Tomorrow, a third meeting will take place in Castle Town.
I was to be chosen as that escort myself.
Superior, I think.
If the nobles come to imitate their jokes, I will reward them with a sword.
There was no stray in Darum-Lou's mind.
"Um... may I sit next to you?
And, on the way to supper, he was called by the pretense.
Outside the house is a feast-like supper that invited Zulu-Sung and many of his family.
Looking back, Sheila-Lou stood beside him where Rudd was supposed to have been sitting.
When she lets her neck tilt silently, Sheila-Lou smiles at her elbows.
"Um... Rudd-Lou took me where I was sitting"
If you look at it, Rudd and Lara were making Sin-Lu look like toddlers.
Truly, it is a noise like a feast.
"It's the floating one. If you're in the way, you can say you're in the way. I wouldn't shy away from such a rough guy."
"... Really..."
Sheila-Lou squeezed her hands in a very rough face.
Seeing that appearance, Darum-Lou finally fell to his heart.
"Oh, even those crude people don't feel comfortable complaining about the people in the main house? Then I'll drag you down instead."
"No... that's not what I meant"
Sheila-Lou makes me look like a crying laugh.
So what does it mean, Darum-Lou made him tilt his neck again?
There, Tito Minh, who was sitting in the seat next to one, calls out.
"How long have you been standing there, Sheila-Lou? Anywhere you want, I'll sit down. Everybody moves whatever they want, so I'm not shy of anything."
Indeed, Tito Minh was right, Dan-Rutim and Lau Ray, among others, had all moved their seats to positions where the dishes they were looking for were easy to take.
Besides, Asta, Ai-Fa, Ziva, etc. had moved to the Zuro-Sung's, so that they were no longer in a toothless state that they didn't know the first seating order, etc.
Still, Sheila-Lou was grinning sadly as he looked more at Dalm-Lou.
"... would you mind if I sat here?
"If you want to sit down, do as you please"
So finally, Sheila-Lou broke her knee on the spot.
That's how I breathe in the cuts.
As always, I'm not sure she's a woman, and Darum-Lou put on the fruit liquor.
"Um... how was the northern settlement?
"The meal tasted bad"
Answering, scratch the meat of Giva twisted in the odd clothes.
This meat is abominably delicious.
"Really?" Sheila-Lou smiles weakly, silence falls.
So Darum-Lou came to think of it.
This Sheila-Lou was the only opponent to know that Dalm-Lou was prolonged.
Defeated by Ai-Fa in comparison to his power, he was to punch Asta in the mood, on the night of the harvest festival - that night when Darum-Lou was to shake his heart the most, he had the opportunity to exchange words with this Sheila-Lou, so he stumbled upon a glimpse of his own mood that had not even been revealed to his family.
(I'm weak... too weak!
(Maybe this weakness is the same weakness as the Sung family folks who were corrupted by the size of the house)
He turned his back on the feast ligh-->>