Chapter 38
Volume 1
Chapter 38
It was the evening of the day the discussion about the incident caused by Gon and his group was held .
「Rio, I’d like to speak to you for a minute . Do you have any time to spare?」
During dinner, after Rio returned from his parents’ grave, Yuba spoke to Rio with an air of seriousness .
「Of course, I don’t mind..」
Having guessed her intention, Rio agreed to her invitation .
「Come with me for a minute . 」
After having put away the dishes, they left Ruri behind and went to Yuba’s room where she closed the door .
Judging from her actions, it seemed like it was a talk she did not want Ruri to overhear .
「Sorry for asking you so suddenly . That fool caused an uproar and things have been hectic over the last couple of days . I couldn’t find time to speak with you in private . 」
「It’s not a problem, I’m grateful for what you’ve done . 」
When they entered Yuba’s room and settled down, Yuba started the conversation with an apology .
Rio responded with a line of gratitude .
The days after the incident involving Gon were quite turbulent .
In the first place, it was the busiest time of the year for the village and that was compounded with arranging the reparation payment settled with Gon’s father .
With every day being so busy, she could not find time for a calm conversation with Rio .
「What I want to say is, Rio, thank you, and I’m sorry . 」
「Thank you and sorry?」
At Yuba’s unexpected words, Rio responded in confusion .
He could not figure out why he was being thanked or what was done to require an apology .
(It seems this child is not aware why I’m thanking and apologizing to him . )
A tender smile formed on Yuba’s face .
Staring at Rio, she could see that he carried a strong resemblance with her daughter-in-law, Ayame .
Even his uncanny sensitivity for the emotions of others strongly resembled Ayame .
(Zen was a very clumsy child, but, well, I guess there are similarities in that regard as well . )
Zen was taciturn, hard-working, and a man more known for his actions than words .
That led to him being easily misunderstood, but there were many who admired his honesty .
Yuba felt Rio inherited Zen’s temperament since he was not one to talk a lot either .
(Like parent, like child after all..)
Rio was an excellent child who inherited both his parents’ positive traits .
He was composed to the point where it was difficult to believe he was a boy at a marriageable age .
He truly was not a child who would take advantage of others .
She had heard that Rio became an orphan at the tender age of five .
How was such a child brought up and how was he able to travel across the continent?
Those were details Yuba remained in the dark about .
She had only received a vague description of his past .
There were several occasions where she wanted to inquire him about it .
However, she did not want to ask him about it so brazenly .
Rio had only given vague information about his past most likely because he was not comfortable with sharing it .
Having realised that, Yuba refrained from asking for details about his past .
That was also the case for Ayame’s death .
Rio had told her that his mother had passed away .
However, he became evasive when asked about the cause .
In any case, Rio was raised in less than ideal conditions and wandered the world all by his lonesome .
It was easy to conclude that his life had been filled with hardships until now .
And yet, she could not help but admire how he was able to grow up without becoming twisted .
(Towards such a child, my behaviour is no better than an infant’s . Age has nothing to do with this . Wherever I could cut corners, I did so . )
Rio’s behaviour that night was clearly abnormal .
On that evening, Yuba was able to catch a glimpse of Rio’s fury that would otherwise be unthinkable of him to display .
However, by next morning, that passion was gone, as if it was nothing but a lie .
No trace of malice remained and at least on the outside, Rio displayed his regular behaviour .
Yuba was able to witness incredible mental fortitude unsuited for a boy so young .
That was why during the days after the incident, Yuba extensively depended on Rio whilst citing her lack of free time as an excuse .
Indeed, Yuba gave priority to Ruri who seemed much more unstable than Rio .
Ruri was just an ordinary village girl that could found anywhere .
Although she lost both her parents and younger brother at an early age, such a degree of misfortune was not uncommon in the world .
Even within the village, she was but an ordinary girl .
Such a child living in a peaceful village suddenly came face to face with malice for the first time and was nearly raped .
It was without a doubt, a big shock for her and Yuba knew it would carve a deep wound in her heart .
Actually, for the past several days, Ruri had been desperately trying to put a strong front . Still, it was evident that she was pushing herself .
While it varies from person to person, psychological wounds take a long time to heal for those who have never been exposed to such things before .
As a result, Yuba paid special attention to Ruri’s condition .
Rio and Ruri .
Both were Yuba’s cherished grandchildren .
Even if they were raised differently, she equally cared for both of them .
Unfortunately, the reality was that she was one person and therefore could only focus on one at a time .
Other than her daily responsibilities as village chief, she also had to take care of Gon’s incident on top of caring for Ruri and Rio . It was not something she could handle alone .
That was why Yuba had to prioritize one over the other .
Realising Rio’s strong mental fortitude, Yuba left him unattended for the past several days .
When Rio apologized the morning after the incident, Yuba judged that he would be all right for the time being .
During that morning’s breakfast, she could not pry into Rio’s past due to the guests they were hosting at the time .
However, even if it was just for a brief moment, she witnessed the eruption of his emotions .
Yuba did not know what kind of past Rio experienced but it was surely a difficult one .
Even if his mental fortitude was strong, the burden on his heart must at least be equal, if not heavier .
Yuba decided that as his grandmother, she would not allow herself to neglect him .
In spite of that, she saw how reliable Rio was and ended up delaying her interactions with him .
「Firstly, let me thank you for what you’ve done . Thanking for saving Ruri from Gon . And, for these past few days, thank you for assisting me with the negotiations with Gon’s father . I am truly grateful for your help . 」
Yuba deeply lowered her head while thanking Rio .
「In addition to that, I became too absorbed in my duties that I neglected on checking up on you . I am deeply sorry . It must’ve been painful for you as well . 」
When Yuba raised her head slightly, a bitter expression could be seen on her face .
Seeing Yuba like that, Rio slowly shook his head with a warm smile .
「Please, it is not something to thank me for . We are family . I only did what was natural . That was all . That is why, please do not apologize since it is painful for me as well . 」
With his eyes fixed on Yuba, Rio spoke in a clear voice .
Rio said that with clear voice while looking straight into Yuba’s eye .
Even though his personalities were clashing internally, Rio felt surprisingly refreshed .
The few days after the incident were painful but now, it was not the case .
His revenge was something he had to take care of by himself .
No matter the pain, it was his burden to carry .
He had no intentions on talking about it with anybody else either .
That was why he would not show any frustration so Yuba would not worry about him .
Ruri’s state was much more pressing than his own .
Since that was the case, it was obvious that she should take precedence over him .
That was Rio’s rationale .
To not be unsatisfied about that was unthinkable .
Yuba matched Rio’s gaze .
A smile floated on his face .
It was a smile of deep understanding, completely like one of a saint .
Like a wide river, it was quiet but contained a powerful might . Yuba found herself unintentionally holding her breath .
「No, but you know..」
For an instant, the figure of Rio from that night flickered into Yuba’s mind .
The fury he displayed was abnormal, to say the least .
It was as if he was completely possessed by Asura; just by being in his vicinity, one could sense the dreadful fury .
Regardless, Rio was able to completely regain his composure in a single night .
However, even if he behaved normally in front of everybody like nothing ever happened, it was obvious he was trying to keep up a facade .
That was why Yuba was able to predict his state of mind .
The other night’s frenzy was probably still weighing on his mind .
Yet, the Rio before her at the moment did not have a trace of worry .
His eyes did not carry a hint of fear or hesitation .
Perhaps he came to an inner peace or understanding .
It was not something that Yuba could discern .
What was it?
There were a lot of things she wanted to hear from him .
However, was it something she was entitled to knowing?
Even she had not brought the topic up with Rio .
It was the issue pertaining to his parents .
Although there was reason Yuba could not bring up the topic, it felt unfair to ask about his past without sharing her own knowledge .
Should I just tell him?
Was what Yuba thought .
Still, just the other day, the letter she sent out was to inquire about the matter .
It would be best to wait for a response first .
Permission to reveal the truth will surely be given .
Acting rashly would be unwise .
「I understand.. However, it’s true that I’ve placed a lot of burden on you . That’s why, please at least let me say this, I am sorry . 」
After deliberating for all that time, those were the only words that came out .
However, those words carried no lies .
Suppressing her wavering heart, Yuba deeply lowered her head to Rio .
「Understood . 」
Sensing Yuba’s determination, Rio accepted her apology with a wry smile .
「Ruri should have calmed down by now and I think that child wants to apologize to you as well . Will you forgive her?」
「There’s nothing for her to apologize for though..」
Perplexed by what Yuba said, Rio could only offer a wry smile .
「It’s about her behaviour you know . 」
「Her behaviour?」
When Rio asked about it, Yuba looked at him in the eyes with a slight smile .
「You saved that child so I’m sure she’s not truly afraid of you . It’s just that she’s been through a lot and hasn’t been able to calm down yet . 」
「That is..」
For the past few days, Ruri had been timid in her interactions with Rio .
Although she acted as if nothing was out of the ordinary, one could perceive that her behaviour was slightly off .
It was something that Rio was able to notice as well .
However, on that night, Rio had unleashed his bloodthirst without holding back and pummeled Gon towards an inch of his life .
As a person unaccustomed to such violence, it was no surprise that she became afraid of Rio .
Without building up a tolerance against violence, it was difficult to not be afraid .
This was something Rio understood, therefore he took the initiative to apologize .
To become estranged with her who was his cousin was not something Rio wished for .
She was not in the wrong for feeling that way .
Despite being frightened by Rio, Ruri still worried about him .
Although it was a shame, there was no use crying over spilt milk . Working to restore their relationship was the only way forward .
Those were Rio’s thoughts .
「It’s not her fault you know . 」
That was why Rio had no intention on criticizing her behaviour .
「..I thought you’d say so . 」
Perhaps having already anticipated his words, Yuba responded with a wry smile .
It was an expression of relief but at the same time, tinged with a hint of loneliness .
It was the look of a parent witnessing their child becoming independent .
Suddenly, Yuba was overwhelmed with the feeling of wanting to act like a proper grandmother in front of her overly benevolent grandchild .
It was a perplexing feeling .
Whether the solution to her earlier worries was solved was unknown .
Far from offering any support, all she was able to say were a few trivial words to Rio .
(I’m such a useless grandmother, aren’t I..?)
Yuba now felt confident about disclosing the truth to her reliable grandchild . However, at the same time, she felt ashamed and sighed deeply in her heart .