He Yang kissed on the lips, without going deep, it was just a lip-to-lip touch.

The mood of the young man in his arms seemed to have stabilized a little. He Yang put one hand on the young man's back and caressed it lightly. He lowered his head slightly and pressed his forehead against his forehead.

\"I'm sorry.\" He Yang leaned up and wanted to kiss again.

\"Stop talking...\" Xu Chengyan turned his head to avoid touching, his eyes were red.

He Yang stretched out his hand, put his finger against the young man's face, and slowly wiped away the tears, \"Don't cry.\"

Xu Chengyan blinked, trying very hard to control his emotions.

It's just that I don't know why, the lacrimal glands seem to be out of control and can't stop at all.

All the grievances I have suffered, all piled up at this moment.

Xu Chengyan closed his eyes, feeling that it was getting harder and harder to breathe, and his fingertips couldn't help grasping the sheets under him tightly, tying them into a ball.

\"I want to go back...\" Xu Chengyan's voice was still a little hoarse.

\"Okay, go back tomorrow.\" He Yang coaxed softly.

Xu Chengyan lowered his head, unable to speak, and suddenly felt short of breath and his heart beat fast.

Xu Chengyan couldn't help but grab He Yang's sleeve, and in the next second, his head was dizzy and he lost consciousness.

\"Yanyan——\"

Late at night, He Yang sent Xu Chengyan to the hospital.

The doctor was doing an examination in the ward, and He Yang sat alone on the chair outside.

In the corridor, there was a rush of footsteps.

The agent hurried over, his face full of anxiety, and looked at the door of the ward.

Immediately afterwards, the agent looked at He Yang, who was on the side, completely losing his good attitude.

\"Mr. He, I gave him to you because I trusted you. Why is he still in the hospital now!" The agent asked.

He Yang was silent.

The agent anxiously walked around the door of the ward until the doctor came out and hurriedly asked about the situation.

Fortunately, there was no major problem with Xu Chengyan, but the doctor still suggested psychological consultation.

After the doctor left, the agent hurried into the room to see Xu Chengyan.

He Yang, on the other hand, stayed in the corridor and didn't go in to disturb him. He just stayed outside silently for the whole night.

The next morning, Yuan Lie came over.

Yuan Lie came to the outside of the ward and saw that the young man on the hospital bed had woken up and was talking to the manager beside him, and he seemed to be in stable condition.

Yuan Lie went to the rest room next door and found He Yang.

He Yang sat by the window smoking a ashtray full of cigarette butts.

Yuan Lie walked over and couldn't help asking: \"I was fine when I passed yesterday, why is it like this overnight?\"

Yuan Lie still didn't understand, obviously when he went to send the invitation last night, he saw that the two had a good relationship, like a couple.

As a result, in one night, he was forced to go to the hospital.

\"What happened last night?\" Yuan Lie sat beside He Yang.

He Yang pressed the cigarette **** into the ashtray to extinguish it, and held a wooden sign in his left hand, rubbing it, and said in a low voice: \"The conversation broke down by accident.\"

\"The conversation collapsed?\" Yuan Lie frowned slightly, glanced at the wooden sign in He Yang's hand again, and sighed: \"You still keep it.\"

Yuan Lie still remembered that wooden sign.

In the past, when He Yang asked him for psychological counseling, he often carried this wooden sign.

Unexpectedly, He Yang is still there.

\"Yeah.\" He Yang held the wooden sign tightly and said slowly: \"I used to treat him badly.\"

Yuan Lie was on the side, listening quietly.

He Yang rubbed the words on the wooden sign and said softly: \"If only...\"

He Yang didn't finish what he said later.

He Yang looked at the wooden sign and was a little lost.

If at that time, his attitude was better, the ending might be different.

If only he could respond sooner, if he could find out sooner...

Everything will be different.

He Yang put the wooden sign in his pocket and said nothing.

Yuan Lie looked out the window and said: \"I just saw him wake up, do you want to go take a look?\"

He Yang responded, got up and walked towards the ward next door.

In the ward, the young man was sitting quietly on the bed.

He Yang knocked on the door and went in, and the young man on the bed also looked up.

The agent was still by the hospital bed, and when he saw He Yang coming, he made an excuse to leave first, leaving space for the two of them.

He Yang came to the bed and looked at the young man.

The young man's face was still pale and looked a little weak.

He Yang opened his mouth to break the silence and asked: \"Is it better?\"

\"It's all right.\" Xu Chengyan had a smile on his face, and his voice was very gentle.

As if nothing happened last night.

He Yang thought about it for a while, but still asked: \"Yanyan, do we want to talk about it?\"

Xu Chengyan just smiled politely, looked away slightly, and did not answer.

He Yang took the young man's hand and whispered: \"Talk about the past.\"

\"No need.\"Xu Chengyan pulled out his hand, not wanting to mention the past.

\"Okay.\" He Yang nodded and did not force him any more.

But He Yang still said: \"A psychiatrist will come over later, can I talk to the doctor?\"

Xu Chengyan shook his head, \"Don't bother, it's alright.\"

\"No trouble.\"

\"He Yang, I'm really fine.\" Xu Chengyan rolled his eyes and laughed.

He Yang did not speak.

The little hedgehog was still too guarded against the outside world and hid himself.

It was hidden so deeply that he only discovered the anomaly with hindsight.

He Yang sighed lightly, helped the little hedgehog tidy up the quilt on his body, then got up and left.

However, after leaving the ward, He Yang still contacted a psychiatrist.

The psychiatrist quickly rushed over and entered the ward.

However, the communication with the psychiatrist was not very smooth, and the patient still did not say anything.

The psychiatrist came out of the ward, found He Yang, and still said: \"I still have to take it slow and try not to stimulate him.\"

He Yang nodded in response.

Yuan Lie was also on the side, looking at the psychiatrist with a half-smile.

After the psychiatrist left, Yuan Lie said to He Yang: \"You look for other psychiatrists, but they don't look for me?\"

He Yang: \"You are his boss.\"

\"I'm a professional psychiatrist.\" Yuan Lie pushed down his glasses and said slowly: \"My suggestion to you is to have a good chat with him.\"

Yuan Lie was a little clearer about the situation of the two and persuaded: \"Emotional matters, it is useless for others to persuade.\"

\"If you have any misunderstandings, please clarify.\"

\"Yeah.\" He Yang responded, took out a cigarette from his pocket, and lit it.

What happened five years ago, he had explained before, had never been a stand-in.

However, the misunderstanding seems to have not been resolved, and it still remains.

He Yang stayed in the lounge, took out his mobile phone, and checked related cases online.

Until evening, He Yang went to the ward to find Xu Chengyan.

At this time, Xu Chengyan had just finished dinner and was watching TV quietly.

He Yang looked at the TV screen and found that there was a cartoon playing on the screen, and it was Xiao Cheng's favorite cartoon of the Big Sheep.

He Yang came to the bed and whispered: \"Yanyan.\"

Xu Chengyan looked over and met He Yang's gaze, \"Huh?\"

\"Would you like to talk?\"

Xu Chengyan still shook his head and smiled: \"I really don't need it, it's all over.\"

Xu Chengyan's tone was light, as if he didn't care about the past at all.

However, He Yang did not avoid the topic this time, and continued: \"Let's have a good chat about those five years.\"

\"He Yang.\"Xu Chengyan suddenly became a little tired, and the smile on his face disappeared, and said softly: \"There's really no need to talk, it's meaningless.\"

\"Meaningful.\"He Yang is still very persistent.

Xu Chengyan looked down at the man beside the bed, his eyes moved down unconsciously and landed on the man's coat.

In the pocket of the jacket, a small wooden sign was exposed.

Xu Chengyan looked at the wooden sign and said unhurriedly: \"It's all in the past, but it's all changed now.\"

He is not the \"Xu Chengyan\" four years ago, nor is He Yang the \"Mr. He\" four years ago.

He is doing well now, and he doesn't want to recall the past or go back to the past.

It's just that He Yang is different from him, He Yang is very nostalgic.

He Yang will keep the old photo album from more than ten years ago, and will keep the wooden sign.

Even the layout of the old mansion's bedroom has not changed, and his things are kept intact inside.

\"I still want to talk.\"He Yang lowered his voice, \"The misunderstanding should be explained clearly.\"

Xu Chengyan shook his head and said: \"No, no misunderstanding.\"

There's no misunderstanding between them, it's just that he's self-indulgent.

\"There is a misunderstanding.\"He Yang spoke slowly, \"At the beginning—\"

\"He Yang.\"Xu Chengyan interrupted a little unhappily, \"I said I don't want to talk, do you have to force me?\"

It has already been four years, and he has cured himself.

But now, He Yang insisted on bringing up the past and tearing open the wound in front of him——

It hurts.

Xu Chengyan looked away, \"Change the subject.\"

He Yang nodded, stretched out his hand, and said: \"Then let's talk about it next time.\"

\"Enough!\"Xu Chengyan pushed He Yang's hand away,\"I said I don't want to talk about it, and I don't want to talk about it next time!\"

\"What do you want to hear? Do you want me to miss the past with you?\"Xu Chengyan was a little excited, \"You miss the past, I don't miss it!\"

Xu Chengyan's eyes turned red, and his breathing became a little short.

He really didn't want to go back to five years ago, and the memories of those five years would only remind him over and over again how embarrassing it was.

He still doesn't understand, it was He Yang who drove him away from the beginning, but when he really left, He Yang suddenly became so \"affectionate\".

Is this really like it?

Does He Yang like him, or does he like the perfect little lover who is obedient, obedient and sensible?

It's like using the habitual items, one day you find that the items suddenly disappear, and you will become obsessed with them.

It's not liking, it's habit.

Xu Chengyan was out of breath for a while, clutching the position of his heart, his head was hot.

\"Yan Yan.\" He Yang quickly stepped forward and hugged the little hedgehog, soothing: \"Don't get excited, breathe slowly.\"

Xu Chengyan also noticed the abnormality in his body, closed his eyes, and tried to calm his breathing.

\"It's my fault.\"He Yang put on the young man's back, stroking back and forth along the back, \"I'm sorry.\"

Xu Chengyan didn't speak, his chest was still heaving and he was emotionally unstable.

\"I'm sorry.\"He Yang apologized over and over again,\"I'm sorry.\"

\"I'm not good to you, it's all my fault.\" He Yang lowered his head slightly, sticking to the young man's face, \"I'm sorry for you.\"

Xu Chengyan couldn't bear it any longer, and buried his head on He Yang's shoulder.

He Yang felt the trembling body in his arms, soothed: \"Don't cry.\"

He Yang gently rubbed the back of the youth's head and apologized again: \"It's my fault, I'm sorry.\"

\"You never asked me...\" Xu Chengyan's voice was choked, and it became more and more difficult to even speak.

He Yang never asked him how he felt.

Just remembering those five years is painful.

He is obviously the person he likes, and he will feel satisfied and happy to be by his side.

But when he recalled it, only pain and grievance remained.

It was so painful.

Couldn't even breathe.

\"Never ask me if I like it or not...\"

He Yang quietly hugged the little hedgehog without speaking.

It wasn't until the little hedgehog's trembling body gradually stabilized that he tentatively said: \"Then can I ask you now?\"

He Yang stretched out his hand, held the young man's face, put his fingertips against the young man's face, and said, "Tell me everything you don't like."

Xu Chengyan's appearance was still a little embarrassed, and his eyes were red and swollen.

Xu Chengyan lowered his head, and after a while, he said: \"I don't like cakes.\"

\"I know.\"

\"I don't like...you accompany others.\" Xu Chengyan thought of Shen Xiuzhu again.

Even if He Yang later explained that it was just a life-saving grace, he still couldn't accept such a \"friend\" relationship.

It's not a couple, but the relationship is so ambiguous that it's the same as a couple, there is no difference.

\"It's my fault, I'm sorry.\"He Yang kept stroking on the back of the young man, helping to smooth the air, and continued to ask: \"Is there any more?\"

\"I don't like covering my eyes.\"Xu Chengyan felt uncomfortable for a while, her eyelashes trembled slightly,\"I don't like the posture behind...\"

\"My fault.\" He Yang lowered his head and kissed the young man's eyes with his lips.

Whether it's covering his eyes or entering backwards, it's a little bit of his fetish.

In order to satisfy oneself, but ignore another person.

\"And kissing, you all...\"

Xu Chengyan opened his mouth and couldn't continue.

They rarely kiss.

Even when he asked for a kiss, he would be rejected.

He Yang also remembered the kissing incident, and with a slight force on his hand, he unconsciously hugged the young man even tighter.

\"It's all my fault, I'm not good.\" He Yang lowered his head and kept kissing the young man's face, as if he wanted to make up for those five years of kisses.

\"Sorry.\"

It's all his fault.

Relying on someone who likes him, he is unscrupulous and refuses to even kiss.

He Yang tightly circled the little hedgehog in his arms and kept coaxing.

The little hedgehog's state has also become more stable, and the spikes on his body seem to be softening.

\"I'm sorry.\" He Yang held the young man's face and lowered his head slightly, wanting to kiss his lips.

The heat of the exhalation was entangled, and the distance between the lips was getting closer and closer.

It's just that He Yang's movements stopped when he was about to kiss his lips.

He Yang turned his head to the side without kissing him. He hugged the person in his arms and bowed his head restrainedly and kissed in the youth's hair.