An unspeakable atmosphere hung over the heads of the people, silent, depressed, sad, heavy on people's hearts.

Xu Guang is the most able to understand Xu Yao. He was also one of the participants in that year. Xu Ru's experience made him very sad.

Su Yu looked at Qin Ze with pity. She always felt that her life experience was miserable enough. Grandma didn't care, uncle didn't love, mother didn't care, father didn't love. They each gave birth to a child to replace her position. Su Yu felt that she was wandering in the shadow of the lights of the two families.

It's incompatible with the harmonious atmosphere of their family. They all say that their parents are the closest people in the world. She also wants to, but if their parents don't kiss her, they may also regard her as the failure of that failed marriage in her life.

But compared with Qin Ze, he seems to be very lucky, although he has a happy family, a strict father and gentle mother, and a coquettish sister.

But he didn't know his biological mother until she died. No one knows who his biological father is.

The experience is so similar... Aze and I are indeed bastards. Seeing mung beans, we are a perfect couple.

Su Yu thought happily.

.......

The man didn't appear. He didn't appear from beginning to end.

My sister was getting bigger and bigger. During the summer vacation, my sister and brother returned to Xujia town.

In the 1990s, how much criticism did a woman who was pregnant before marriage get in this remote and poor town.

For a time, rumors abound.

Some people say that Xu Ru worked as someone else's junior outside, so she had money for her brother to study.

Some people said that Xu Ru was an object outside, but she was abandoned by others.

Anyway, there is everything to say.

Various labels such as "bad woman", "casual" and "indecent" were put on her.

It's summer vacation, and the sun is burning the earth.

In the small town shop, a group of aunts chatted around, waving fans in their hands.

"Whose is the wild seed in Xu Lan's stomach? It's about to give birth."

"There are so many wild men out there that she doesn't say it herself. How do you know who it is?"

"This baby, who has no parents since childhood, is easy to cheat. He can coax her to bed in a few words."

"Now who wants her?"

"Is that boy Rong admitted to college? Hey, you said that when Xu LAN gave birth to a baby, how can he afford to go to college again?"

The shop owner's wife suddenly changed her face and gave several aunts a fierce wink.

At the door, outside the shadow of the eaves, Xu Yao stood there, expressionless, his hands clenched into fists.

"Ah Rong came to get the admission notice. He just arrived this morning." The landlady squeezed out an embarrassed but polite smile.

Xu Yao took the admission notice and left. It was sealed in a yellow envelope.

During the period when he came back from the summer vacation, he heard too much gossip, some secretly, some face to face. He never fights. He often quarrels with people during the summer vacation.

Xu Yao hated his sister, hated her for not loving herself, and hated her for ruining her future.

That kind of madness that hates iron and steel tortures him day by day.

He hated the man who raised his pants and didn't recognize others. Although he didn't know who he was, his sister never said it.

No wonder the gossip in town.

The old bus came slowly, drove smoothly on the paved oil road just the year before last, and finally stopped at the bus stop.

A teenager and a young woman with a big belly came down from the car.

Those are Xu Guang and Xu LAN, who have been away from their hometown for many years.

"Hi, hi, Arong." Xu Guang waved hard and smiled.

The women in the small shop put their heads out.

Xu Yao looked at Xu LAN deeply.

After many years, I finally saw her again. Now Xu LAN has faded the green and astringent of a girl, and has become mellow and plump, with a young woman's grace between her eyebrows.

"Why are you in town? I thought you and sister Ru moved to the county."

"Oh, my sister is pregnant, so she came back and hid. The family planning office group who gave birth to sons without py, caught my sister and sent her to the hospital to have an abortion. You see her stomach is so big, can she have an abortion, a group of inhuman beasts."

"My brother-in-law didn't come. I sent my sister back. Anyway, my father said it didn't matter whether I went to work or not. He knew to fish. It's better to come back with my sister and take care of her."

Xu Guang was as lively as ever, chattering all the way.

"Say less." Xu LAN scolded his brother, then looked at Xu Yao and said softly, "what's the matter, Arong?"

She is always so gentle, so intimate, easily aware of the gloom in her eyes.

In an instant, his eyes were red, and Xu Yao said, "my sister is pregnant."

.......

That night, Xu LAN and Xu Ru talked about late at night. Two pregnant women and two girlfriends had been separated for many years, and one married and had children. They were happy. An unmarried pregnancy has been criticized.

Just like their childhood experiences, they are very different.

Xu Ru looked at Xu LAN, always like a little match girl looking at the warm stove and delicious Christmas dinner in the room through the window.

Two Worlds.

"Who is the father of the child?"

Lying on the same bed in the dim light, Xu LAN whispered.

Xu Ru hesitated for a while and didn't say.

Xu LAN gently stroked her best friend's stomach, which was bigger than her, and the due date must be earlier.

"When a child is just born, he can have no father, but when he grows up? Other children have fathers, but he doesn't." Xu Lan said, "my baby likes her father. She is tired of being with her father all day. The children of single parent families are very bitter. You are from the past, and you should count."

Seeing that she was still silent, Xu Lan said bitterly, "are you tired of carrying everything by yourself? Even if he doesn't want you or children, he can at least ask for a compensation, and your life will be better."

"What about Arong? He was admitted to Zhejiang University. After so many years of hard work, did you finally see hope and give up halfway? You said that reading can change your destiny, and you're the last step away. Don't go? Also, what about your future? You're not young. How can you marry with a child?"

How to get married? In these days, who wants a woman who gives birth to a baby without getting married.

Who wants it.

For a long time, Xu Ru said, "he just left for something."

"Do you believe it?" Xu LAN asked rhetorically.

Silence again.

"Don't say this," Xu Ru said with a strong smile, "Why are you pregnant again? Now you are so strict. I heard that there are five months of extra births in the town. They were all caught and killed, and almost two lives went together."

Xu LAN reluctantly said, "my family wants a son, and his father also wants to. He always feels that without a son, his old Qin family is dead. Don't look at his pain now, especially his daughter. After knowing that I am pregnant, he is happy. Usually, he is an old-fashioned person, jumping and jumping, like a child."

Xu Lan's reproachful and helpless tone, but her face was full of happiness, which deeply hurt Xu Ru's heart.

"In fact, I can think of a Rong's tuition, but I can't. I asked my father for it. Anyway, a Rong also called him uncle." Xu LAN sighed, "but you..."

In fact, at that time, it was the time when Xu LAN had the greatest contradiction with his mother's family. At least the Xu family's father was a cadre leader, but the daughter of the cadre leader wanted to have extra children.

The reason why the Xu family doesn't like the Qin family is that the Qin family is shabby and has no money.

"No, what kind of money can your husband have? The poorest is a teacher, right?" Xu Ru said, "I'll find a way to pay a Rong's tuition. As a sister, I should take care of my brother. Xiao Lan, this is the last dignity of my sister."

Yes, this is her last dignity.

Yes, the elder sister is like a mother, she should be.

.......

Hearing this, Qin Ze felt both melancholy and sadness.

No matter whether aunt Xu still hopes for the man, the end is still doomed. The man did not come, and she reluctantly separated from her own son and married someone else.

In fact, her tragic life was doomed from the beginning.

In his mind, he couldn't help but think of the song he wrote to his sister:

I once loved such a man,

He said I was the most beautiful woman in the world.

I kept that innocence for him,

Close the door to love others.

It's also the man I love deeply,

Turn me into the dumbest woman in the world

Have you ever loved a man like this, hoped for him, and longed for him, but you were turned into the dumbest woman.

Aunt Xu?

"Who is the child my mother gave birth to?" Qin Ze asked.

From the bottom of his heart, this matter is over. He knew his life experience and got rid of a heart disease.

He got everything he wanted. The past can't bear looking back, so he let it go with the wind in time.

But Qin Ze didn't resist curiosity and asked one more question.

Xu Guang shook his body exaggeratedly, and the whole person seemed to cross.

According to them, I should be born earlier than me. October is my birthday, but it's not really my birthday.

Where have I been? Have I been eaten by Guangdong people.