Chapter 711: Hidden Affections

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CHAPTER 711 – Hidden Affections

“I’m not complaining,” Chen’an confronted.

“You do not have to. It is about time.”

“No.” His brows creased for a second but he relaxed and stood up from his seat.

“Chen, you know I have to.” She shut her eyes. The idea of accepting the truth was too hard for her.

“You can ask me for anything but not that.”

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“But I have my mission to handle and I also have my life waiting for me.”

“Then what am I?” He saw a jolt of pain flash in her eyes and felt bitter for having been the one to cause that.

“I cannot. Aside from that, I grow fondly with you daily and I can hardly resist the need to touch you and.” He took a pause and lowered his head. “You deserve better.”

“No, Ren. I am not complaining.” She too stood up and watched him as he moved up to her. “I know we started on a wrong foot and well things just progressed. You may feel bad for crashing into me but I do not understand this either.”

“Chen’an.”

“I always look forward to meeting you when I leave work and then I enjoy your company, your teasing, how you pat me on the head. Just name it. I have gotten used to you and I am going to miss you.”

All of her confessions, though sweet and right on point were difficult for him to accept. He was a spy and did jobs that well – he just could not have her by his side.

She deserved stability in life and he could not offer her that.

“Chen’an. You deserve better than what I can offer you. You are a lovely soul and I am truly glad to have met you, else who knows what I would have been.”

“A naughty piece of yourself,” she joked as a sad smile formed on her lips.

“Yeah, you do not deserve this naughty piece of shit,” he added.

“I never said that.” He stopped at her side and smiled. “Ren.”

“Shh...” he placed a hand over her lips and directed her back down on her seat with his other hand.

Following his lead, she sat back down. Ren walked up behind her and placed his hands on her shoulders.

Within seconds, he began to massage her shoulders and neck, easing the stress she accumulated during the day. “Aahh...” a soft moan escaped her lips as she relaxed into his massage.

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“I am sorry, Chen’an but I need to leave,” he brought up again.

“Ren. I do not want to.”

“But I can’t keep my hands off you and even now.” Her eyes flew open when she noticed his hand had slid down to her front hovering over her cleavage.

To his surprise, she lifted her hand and placed it on top of his, directing it down to her chest. He froze for a second there and did not move.

She gulped. Perhaps she was wrong but she did not care. Anything to prove that she liked him way too much more than normal.

“Chen...” She stood up, letting his hands drop to his side, and faced him directly. “You deserve better than me and this should never have happened if I was not stupid enough to have gotten shot.”

“Then call it fate. I am happy you did. It happened.”

“Ouch, you like me getting injured?” he teased.

“You know what I mean. I’m going to miss you, Ren and I do not think my heart can take it for now.”

“We shouldn’t.”

“I want to.”

“You are making this difficult for me, dear.”

‘I know but can you blame me? I have got a handsome, caring, dangerous guy standing before me. My hormones can’t just help it.”

‘Your hormones,” his cheeks pulled back into a wonderful smile. “You are something else.”

She closed the gap between them and placed a hand on his chest. Her gaze followed after, watching and feeling how his heart thudded rapidly in his chest. “I know you feel it too. I have seen the way you look at me.”

“Chen’an.”

“Shh...” she placed a hand over his lip and smiled, mimicking his earlier action. “You want me.” He filled when her other hand slid down his torso through his black shirt.

“Then nothing is stopping you.”

“Chen...” His words got cut off by her lips. She pressed her soft warm lips some more on his, pushing at his restraints and daring him to take that bold step.

He waited for a minute, hoping she would stop, rather she moved her hand on his chest up to wrap around his neck and deepened the kiss.

Ultimately, he gave in when she snuck her palm down his body to his crotch. He sucked in a breath, parting his lips and she took hold of the opportunity.

Her lips slid past his lips till she met his and licked his own.

His breathing hitched. Ren threw caution to the wind and immediately wrapped his hands on her waist pulling her body closer to his.

One hand snaked up into her hair, deepening the kiss further while his other hand moved up and down on her back.

“Hmm...” She moaned deeper, feeling his length already getting hard from their intimate moment.

After some seconds they broke off briefly and stared into each other’s eyes.

This was the last straw of warning for them. After this consent, there was no going back for either one of them.

“Don’t go, please. Stay.”

“What if I fall so much in love with you?”

“I think you already did, Ren. Else you wouldn’t be so mindful of my heart and wanting me at the same time.”

“I have to leave eventually and you know it,” be reasoned one last time. “I can’t afford a relationship and not being there for you.”

“If we go into this, we can work things out I believe.”

“Sigh, I guess I am to blame for turning you this way.”

“Blame fate for letting our paths cross.” He chuckled lightly and kissed her.

“No. I blame your naughty tempting self and hand on my hard-on.”

Her smile broadened as she returned his kiss. Throwing caution to the wind, the two of them let go, unleashing in their hidden desires.

“I love you.”