Chapter 734: Do You Hate Me?

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CHAPTER 733 – Do You Hate Me?

“My love.” He got no response after what he said. At first, Ye Cheng wondered if Li Jing was okay after hearing what he had to say.

To a large extent, he was scared as well. He did not want his wife to think badly of him.

Whatever her opinion of him was, it mattered so much to him. Having her get scared was no option.

“Li Jing,” Ye Cheng called out her name in a low whisper as though if he spoke any louder, it was going to scare the living daylight out of her.

“Hmm?” She answered after some seconds.

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“Are you okay?”

“Hmm.” Her response was still the same and it hurt him.

At that moment, Ye Cheng knew he had shocked her and tightened his grip on her back, pressing her closer to his body to feel the warmth she provided and envelop her with his.

No matter what the reason was, he would try his best to make her see the true him and know his real intent.

As much as she felt like breaking free from the hug to stare into his eyes while he spoke, Li Jing knew better than to do something like that.

It would make him feel she despised him and honestly, she did not.

She knew he was capable of doing anything to protect her, but having heard it now, it shook her still.

“I am sorry,” he apologized out of the blue shocking both Li Jing and himself. He never wanted anything going wrong between them.

They had both suffered for months before finally coming together. And now he found love, letting go was no answer.

“I am sorry for hurting you.”

“You did not hurt me, Ye Cheng. You didn’t.”

“I know not physically but I felt like I hurt your trust and feelings.”

“No. It is not I you should be apologizing to but Chen’an. How is she by the way?”

Sensing her heart was still far from him, he felt the need to reassure her.

Ye Cheng let out a deep sigh before pulling from her hold to stare into her eyes. He wanted her to see his sincere heart while he spoke.

“Look at me, Li Jing. I love you. With all my heart and soul, I do love you.”

The light that flickered in his irises further illuminated the room, bringing a certain love to warm her heart.

“I know, Cheng. I know.”

“Thanks, but I know you may feel that my methods are wrong because I love you and act this way, but honestly baby, I just want to keep you safe. I have seen what this man can do, that was how we met in the first place. I cannot have him take you or mother from me.”

She held his arms with a strong grip and straddled his waist as her eyes held a certainty like the boldness he had ever seen. “And you won’t. I promise you. You would not lose me.”

“How sure are you? I can’t.” She cut him off quickly, pressing her lips on his.

Seconds after she moved away and flashed him a genuine smile as she nodded her head. “Because I said so and because I am still yet to give you a child and I have not seen my mother.”

He shook his head. No matter what she said they were facing a big foe. He was dirty and was not afraid to play dirty because he bribed his way out of any situation.

“But he can be ruthless. Allow me to protect you.”

“Ye Cheng, what would you do? Have me locked up forever just to protect me from Chairman Zhang.”

“You need protection. This has gone farther than a normal business deal. He wants what he wants and he would do just about anything to get what e ant. He framed my dad, although he had it coming for his frivolous acts but still.”

“Cheng,” she protested softly.

“Baby, hear me out, okay. He tried to blow me up. That man is dangerous. You are not his family, he has no remorse in handling you.”

“But I can’t stay cooked up out of fear. No. I demand to be able to live my life as I please.”

“Yes, you can when it is free from danger. But for now, you are to stay indoors. And if I have to, I would do just that, lock you up, but for now, you need to listen to me.”

“Hell, wait a minute. What do you mean by if you have to do that? Ye Cheng, I am no kid.”

“But you fall prey to their plans easily,” he reminded her.

“Hey, that’s not fair!” Li Jing hollered, her voice rising, indicating her uncontrolled anger.

“I am sorry. Calm down, okay. Everything I do, I do for your good and because I love you.”

“Just like what you did to Chen’an and Ren?”

His brows kneaded and a pang of pain flash in his eyes as he blinked his pain at her. He could not believe she would say that to him.

He had just opened up and told her it was a mistake. How could that not count for her?

As quickly as it came, Ye Cheng pushed it away but she had seen it and realized her words were indeed harsh.

Lowering her head, Li Jing inhaled deeply bringing her eyes to a close. “I am sorry. I never meant it that way, Cheng.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

She pried her eyes open, lifting her head to look at his face. He was sad, to say the least.

“No. It does. I do not see you as a monster or a bad person. I know you care so much for me but I do not want you doing anything illegal or too bad that would in the future affect you.”

Her eyes searched his, going from his face to his chest and then back again. “I love you. I do not want you to make a mistake someday and have it haunt you.”

“Mistake like what?”

“Killing someone. That isn’t you, okay?”

His brows arched up that she would think of that but then realizing what had happened today could have gone very wrong, he understood her fear.

“Fine. I promise. I would never kill anyone.”

She let out a soft breath and nodded her head. “Good. I can work with that. Anyways, how about Ren?”

“He is down in one of the rooms, properly tied.”

“His hands would hurt, Ye Cheng,” Li Jing reasoned.

“Yes, but I cannot have him escaping until he spills the entire truth. Then I can let him go.”

“You promise?”

“Yes.”

“Okay.” She nodded her head in understanding. “And Chen’an?”

“She was discharged this evening and brought back to the house. Long Lei came with her. She is going to be alright, he said but she remains in tears.”

Li Jing let her eyes drop close at his explanation before nodding her head. “Fine but what about her? What would you do to her?”

“I do not have any need for her. I just wish to know if I was lied to or not. I hate being fed with lies. I did trust her you know.”

“I know you did. It is why you get so pained when those same people hurt you.” She recalled the time with Bai Qing Mei and when she saw him, who barely drank, getting drunk just to deal with his pain.

Even at that, he was forgiving but it seems to have changed.

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“You won’t forgive them if you find out they played you right?”

“Nope. I would not. I did for Bai Qing Mei and Hao Huizhong. Where did that get me? I am still brawling out with the Bai and Zhang family and Hao had to be my brother. Life sucks.”

“Shh... You have me, doesn’t that count for something?”

“It does, wifey. It does. And for that, I am genuinely grateful to have been able to meet such a pure soul like you.”

His eyes held a smile that warmed the inside of her heart, providing security like never before.

They remained in their position just staring at each other while their mind did their best to hide their thoughts from each other. They were both scared of how things had gone but they did not want to voice it out.

“Do you hate me?” Ye Cheng inquired.

“No. Why would you think that? I could never hate you. Ever. No matter what you do.”

“I see.”

“Yes, but just refrain from killing anyone and I would be happy, honey. Promise me.”

“As I said earlier. I promise. I won’t kill anyone.”

Satisfied by his response, Li Jing nodded at him. “Good. But just so you know, they could be saying the truth.”

‘Chen’an maybe but Ren is hiding something. Be it good or bad, I need to know and determine it myself. If I lose you, I cannot promise what I would do.”

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‘Shhh... No more of those talks. You won’t lose me.”

She pressed her lips on his, allowing her body to slide down his, melting into him as their lips swept over each other.

Ye Cheng couldn’t tell what came over him.

A different feeling occupied his senses as the only thing he could think of was not wanting to hurt her as he slowly and sweetly dropped kisses on her lips and wanted her to feel this kiss and to feel his need.