Chapter 489 Just Do Whatever You Wish To Do

"The only person who can affect my emotions is you."

The garden outside the Plum Courtyard was silent after Xi Ying finished his words. Li Rui silently stared into Xi Ying's black eyes that were filled with intense love.

A moment later, she looked away.

Xi Ying sighed as he also turned his head. He never noticed how Li Rui's fist was clenched tightly inside her sleeves.

Every time she would look into Xi Ying's eyes ..especially when he would let her see all the emotions he was feeling, she would feel her heart skip a beat, and then it would beat so quickly that she would fear that it would jump out of her chest.

This feeling..it was very new to her and hence somewhere it scared Li Rui.

To divert her attention away from her confused thoughts, Li Rui asked Xi Ying in a low voice.

"Then why are you angry with me?"

Her voice was very calm, never giving away anything she was feeling at that moment and hence Xi Ying also could never sense it.

He, instead, sighed in defeat.

Could she really not see it?

At this moment, Xi Ying seemed to be more known to the fact that Li Rui lacked the intelligence to understand the emotions deeply ..or perhaps this case was with him only.

This time, he looked at his silly wife with a helpless expression on his face and told her the truth.

"I didn't like that you allowed Li Rong inside Xi Manor. Before you had your own reason but now Rui, I had thought that you trusted me and hence you didn't feel any need to yield in front of those people but today I suddenly felt that I was wrong."

Li Rui's mouth parted slightly in shock when she heard Xi Ying's words.

She had never thought that he would take her actions this way.

Her eyebrows knitted to form a frown when she saw that Xi Ying's eyes were filled with pain when he looked away.

Unconsciously, Li Rui stretched out her hand to hold Xi Ying's hand.

"Ying.."

She whispered softly as she waited for him to turn his head to look at her.

However, Xi Ying didn't do so.

Needless to say, he was hurt this time.

Xi Ying knew very well that he had made mistakes.

Mistakes ..that he doesn't understand why he did in the first place.

He still doesn't understand but he was trying his best to set everything alright. However, sometimes he could also feel exhausted, and perhaps this moment was one of those moments for Xi Ying.

In his whole life, he had perhaps loved this much only one person and that person was Li Rui. The knowledge that even that one person didn't trust him completely made him feel as if someone was stabbing his heart continuously.

What should he do to make her believe him?

Should he take out his heart and present it in front of her? Will she believe him then?

He could do that also if only someone could assure him that Li Rui would trust him.

Love was a very far step for him right now if Li Rui didn't even trust him blindly.

Unknown to Xi Ying, Li Rui felt a little panicked seeing the lack of response from his side.

"Ying.."

She called out again and she sighed in relief when Xi Ying finally turned his face to look at her this time.

"Ying, I didn't do all that because I didn't trust you."

Li Rui looked at Xi Ying, however, his eyes were blank, unable to make her comprehend whether he actually believed her or not.

And it actually made her feel a little frustrated.

The current Li Rui didn't even notice how she was trying to make Xi Ying trust herself. If it had been her past self then she wouldn't have cared in the first place but this Li Rui did.

She wanted Xi Ying to trust her and for that, she was ready to explain herself something that she didn't even bother to do when she had been misunderstood for four years.

And hence when Xi Ying asked her

"Then why did you do that?"

Li Rui answered immediately.

"Because I am not only the daughter of Li Manor, Ying. I am your wife also, this Manor's only madam. If I had returned Elder Aunt from the Manor's gates then this news would soon have spread throughout the whole Imperial City. It could have affected your and Xi Manor's reputation, Ying."

When Li Rui said all this, Xi Ying was silently looking at her.

And when she finished, Xi Ying was still looking at her silently. His continuous gaze made Li Rui touch her face and she couldn't help but ask.

"Is there something on my face?"

Xi Ying's one hand was held by Li Rui's hand and with his other, he held Li Ruis's hand with which she was touching her cheek and shook his head quietly.

He lowered her hand from her face and asked after a moment of pause

"When did you change so much, Rui?"

The question made Li Rui frown in confusion.

Something that she herself couldn't notice was noticed by Xi Ying.

However, Xi Ying was still looking at Li Rui silently as if he was trying to find the answer to his question from Li Rui's face.

There was no doubt that Xi Ying felt very happy to see how much Li Rui cared for his and his clan's reputation.

The words from her mouth ..'I am your wife' ..he could swear on his life that nothing else in his life had pleased him more.

After all, this was the first time she had said something like that.

But she didn't need to do all that.

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A moment later, when he could see that Li Rui would not answer his question, he sighed and held her hand firmly as he told her.

"Rui, you are my wife and that's why you don't need to fear all this. It is they who need to fear to say anything against you and Xi Clan and they do fear already."

Xi Ying said each and every word very firmly and he waited to see anything on Li Rui's face that could make him feel that she was understanding what he was trying to make her understand.

A moment later, he asked her suddenly.

"Since you thought this, then why did you refuse her when she asked for the ointment for Li Caihong? Were you not afraid that they can still spread this rumor and use it to damage your reputation?"