111 Hidden Emotions

He took Anna into the library and made sure no one saw them before shutting the door behind him.

Anna took a quick step back after he released her hand, keeping a safe distance away from him. She was already expecting some sort of scolding as his mood tends to change like the rapidity of the weather and right now, she was unsure of when the volcano inside of him would erupt.

“I’m not going to eat you alive.” He assured her, but Anna still had her doubts and refused to drop her guard.

“What do you want then? And why did you bring me here?” She demanded, finding it unusual that he’d want to speak to her in a library of all places.

He leaned against the door but said nothing, the look in his eyes displayed a bit of hesitancy as he averted them and Anna didn’t know exactly what to make from that expression.

“That mark on your....” He pointed at his own forehead, indicating he was referring to her meteor mark.

“Oh.” She felt the silver birthmark on her forehead, “what happened to it?”

He brought out the Grimoire from his pocket, opening it and holding it out for Anna to see.

“This old little paper here says a few things about your mark that leaves me with tons of questions, and I need you to answer them for me, and be honest.

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“What about my birthmark?”

“It’s a punishment given to your soul, due to the fact you chose to be reborned at your own will and defying the laws of rebirth.” He stated, leaving Anna to snatch the Grimoire from his grasp and she looked at it.

“Untimely rebirth?”

He nodded, “the consequences were strangely wiped out from the Grimoire and that’s when you come in.” He moved away from the door and stood before her. There was a strange look of concern as she met his gaze. For the first time, she noticed his emotions despite him trying to hide it.

“What are the consequences?” He popped the question at her.

“Why are you asking me?”

“Cause I don’t think you’d want to get rid of a mark that you certainly have no idea about.”

“It’s a cursed birthmark, everything in my life has been upside down from the day I was born, so you see,I have enough reasons to get rid of it.”

“No.” He shook his head, “you aren’t telling me the full truth and it took me some little puzzles to fix before it made clear sense.”

He took another step towards her, she took a step back.

“Azazel finds it difficult to balance the three realms after a special soul escaped from the limbo,” he began, “such souls aren’t guaranteed to live long Anna. It’s the consequences of going against the law of rebirth and...”

“I know that already.” She told him, “I know my lifespan is limited and you wanna know something else? I used to think that that was the major problem in my life, I used to think that getting rid of it would give me the happiness that I aim for but....but it’s not.” She shook her head at Roshan before dropping the Grimoire down on the table, using it as an attempt to hide her nervousness but he grabbed her hand and forcefully made her look at him.

“You knew?? Why didn’t you tell me the whole truth when making that exception of yours?”

She freed her hand from his grip, “I didn’t find it necessary to tell you back then, it’s not like I meant anything to you for you to take it seriously.”

She truthfully said, “Yes I want to live but I want to do that so I can experience the true feeling of happiness, I_I want to experience that feeling of being happy, even if it’s just once.”

The emotions laced to her tone and the look in her watery brown eyes brought a feeling upon Roshan that he never knew existed inside of him, but regardless of it, he felt restrained and looked away from her, refusing to show it and it was something Anna wouldn’t let him do this time.

“You claim to have no emotions when all you do is hide it.” She smiled sadly with a look of pity, “I used to think you were heartless but now I understand it better, every man has his secret sorrow that the world knows not and is often considered cold when he is only sad..... that’s you.”

“You have no idea what you’re saying.” He responded, “this isn’t about me.”

“It has everything to do with you,” she countered back, “we’ve spent a lot of times together Roshan, we_”

“I don’t wanna hear it.”

“You have to, sooner or later you’re going to regret keeping things to yourself, cause it’ll do nothing more but hurt you and eat you in_”

“I said it’s enough!” He snapped, leaving a startled gasp to escape from her lips and the last thing he wanted to do was frighten her, but he hated how true her words were, he hated the fact she was able to see through him and his cold gazes and he wanted her to just stop.

He wasn’t used to people understanding him like this.

“Fine.” Came a response he wasn’t expecting to hear from her and the next thing, she ran towards the direction of the window and opened it.

To Roshan’s horrified gaze, he watched as she climbed the edge of the window, staring down at the length of the place before turning to look at Roshan.

“Fine, since neither of us are willing to accept the truth about ourselves, I don’t have much time left anyways so there’s no difference if I die today or not.”

“What are you doing? Don’t be foolish and get down from there.” He watched her take a step back but what added to his vexation was the painful smile on her lips, it was like a heavy stab to his chest and she just waved, making him realize that if she fell, he would never see her again.

“Goodbye.”

“Wait!”

She closed her eyes and deliberately let her foot slip from the edge. She felt herself being pulled down by the gravity that awaited her fall but instead of falling, someone grabbed her hand at the nick of time and pulled her back up. The pull forced her to come down from the edge of the window and when she looked up to meet his stare, he was glaring at her.

“Are you mad??”

She shook her head with a knowing smile, “I knew you’d stop me.”

Roshan could finally catch his breath after seeing she was standing right in front of him. Obviously she had gone crazy and he felt like killing her for daring him like this, then killing himself afterwards.

“What if I didn’t?” Was she even thinking? He nearly asked if her main aim in his life was to drive him mad, but restrained himself from saying something foolish and he didn’t even realize his emotions were being displayed right in front of her.

“If you really had no emotions, if you didn’t have a heart, then you wouldn’t have stopped me. People with no emotions don’t value the lives of others, neither do they care about the lives of an ordinary maid, do you get it now?”

She said, leaving him to reflect more on her words and she walked out. She hadn’t even brushed past him completely when he grabbed her arm and brought her back.

“A maid?” He frowned at her words, “you do know you’re more than a maid to me, right?”

As angry as he was, those words were still as sweet as honey from his sensuous lips and Anna had no control over her heartbeat as it thumped in response.

“You’re.My.Mate.” he didn’t bother hiding his emotions this time, making his concern known and it left Anna breathless.

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“What?”

He kissed her, leaving her eyes to widen in bewilderment as she blinked in disbelief. Although it wasn’t the first time he’s kissed her, his kiss today was surprisingly gentle, not forced and they held more feelings that were unutterable as she instinctively found herself reciprocating to his touch and his hands wrapped her tiny waist.

Unknown to the two of them, William hurried past the garden below and just when he was about to step into the building, he caught sight of the two of them.

“What the_”

He arranged his glasses, thinking he wasn’t seeing properly but turns out, his eyes aren’t deceiving him and the color on his face paled.

“Roshan and Anna??”