451 DO YOU WANT ME TO GO?

historical

“You didn’t kill him, right? We need him alive.” Zuri gave him a look, as she walked toward the man, who Knox managed to knock him down. “You know the drill.”

Annoyed, Knox clicked his tongue and then followed her, he then knocked her head lightly, while walking past her. “I have done it countless time before you even born.”

How could this girl tell him what he had to do when he had done it more than her, longer than her, but when he glanced at the girl, he knew right away that she just wanted to mess with him.

This was really annoying.

“Get the body and let’s go back,” Zuri said, when Knox knelt down to carry the body. She didn’t need to say that, because without saying something like that, that was what Knox would do.

But, when Zuri said it and Knox did exactly the way he was told, it sounded like an order for him and this even pissed him off.

“Stop talking like that to me,” Knox growled. He usually was very calm and collected, but whenever he was with her, she would manage to press the wrong button no matter how patient he was.

“I am just telling you,” Zuri said lightly, she shrugged her shoulder. She was still holding a grudge because he let her fought those men earlier, when he could flick his finger and got rid of them in the next second.

“Stop being petty,” Knox said, as if he could read her mind.

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In the end, Knox grabbed her wrist and forced her to kneel down beside him, as he teleported the three of them out of there to the manor.

The sensation was something that Zuri didn’t like, this was the third time Knox teleported them, but the sensation that Zuri felt when he did that was so different from when Chaos did the same thing.

Zuri felt her stomach churned when Knox did it. It was uncomfortable, not as smooth as when Chaos did the same thing.

“You make me dizzy,” Zuri complained under her breath when they arrived right at Chaos’s bedroom, she looked around and found Norbeat was sleeping on the couch, while the sun peaked from the horizon.

It was almost morning and they just returned after a rough night with Knox.

“Ck. He is really useless,” Knox said, as he glanced at Norbeat, who was fast asleep, he didn’t even care about his surroundings and just slept like that. He even did not wake up when they were here.

However, Zuri didn’t really care about Knox’s complain about Norbeat. She wanted to make Chaos felt better soon. “What should we do now?”

Zuri walked over to sit on the edge of the bed, she leaned over to kiss his temple and look at his sleeping face, he looked at ease when he was sleeping like this.

“You can wait until he wakes up, I will leave this man here,” Knox said lightly, he pretended that he didn’t see anything when Zuri looked at Chaos so intense, as if she would give up the world just to be with him, just to make sure that he was safe.

In that case, how could Chaos said confidently that she would be able to stab him without doubt when the situation demanded her to do so?

Knox more believed that Zuri would let the world burned into chaos and every single soul ceased to exist rather than to kill him.

“Hm,” Zuri mumbled, she didn’t pay any attention to him when she was with Chaos, she didn’t care with her surroundings, while Norbeat was still fast asleep.

With that, Knox left the room to find July, because there were a lot of things that he needed to talk with her.

If July was not inside Chaos’s room, she must be in their bedroom. Knox could understand the resentment that started to grow in July’s heart for Chaos.

He knew that July hated Chaos in his behalf, thus it would be too much for her to stay with him inside the bedroom, to take care of him.

Knox entered their bedroom, he expected to see July was fast asleep, but instead, she was sitting on the couch, while staring at the sky, which slowly got brighter.

“Why don’t you sleep?” Knox asked, as he approached her and kissed her head, but July didn’t turn around or even surprised to know he was there. She kept her eyes stared at the same spot. “Are you okay?”

“I heard it from Sebastian,” July said, she took Knox’s hand and made him to sit down next to her, while the bright from the sun fell on her face and Knox immediately knew this was something really serious.

“He told you about that, right?” Knox knew what Sebastian had told her, because this was something that the two of them were talking about before he left to look for Chaos’s shattered soul.

“Yes.” July nodded, she looked at Knox closely, her heart was beating so fast, but she felt there was a dull knife twisted in her heart in every beat of it, but she tried her hardest to not show it on her face.

Sebastian told her about this and said that he didn’t care if she let Knox knew that he didn’t keep his promise to keep it secret between them.

Moreover, July wouldn’t be able to confront Knox without ousted Sebastian, because this was something that Knox and Sebastian talked about alone.

“Do you really want me to go?” July asked him. She looked at him closely, as she was trying to numb her feeling. She had been up all night to prepare herself for this moment.

But now, she realized, no matter how many nights that she spent without sleep, there would never come the time, where she would be ready for this.

“Do you really want me to go? Do you really want me to go with Sebastian?” July felt her voice was shaking when she said this, she was holding back her tears. No. She didn’t want to cry right now. This was not the right time for that. She didn’t want to cry at all.

July took a deep breath and then took Knox’s hands, both of his hands felt so warm and callous. How could she forget about this feeling? She was still in love with him, but how life was so cruel to both of them?

“Answer me, Knox. Do you really want me to go with Sebastian?” July brought his hands to her lips, as she kissed his knuckles, these hands were the only hands that she wanted to hold until the end of her life.

At this point, she considered to give up. She wanted to give up with the thought of having a baby with him. She wanted him...

Please, please tell me that you want me too...

July begged him, this was a silence plea. She wanted him to want her too and that’s all she needed to give up to their unborn baby. She would live like this with him. She would forget about it.

“Yes. I want you to go with him. Live the life that you want with Sebastian,” Knox said. He didn’t feel anything when he said that, it almost felt like he was reading a script that he needed to read and didn’t have any feeling for it.

“You want me to live with Sebastian? Away from this place?” July asked him, the grip on his hands tightened, even though her expression didn’t let him know what was in her mind right now. “You will let me go?”

July just needed him to say that he wanted her, he wanted her to stay with him and with that, she would give up her silly dream to have her own little family. She would give up and would never bring the topic again.

Now she was on the verge of breaking down, when she had to face the reality that their relationship would turn into dust, there were years that they had to waste, she wanted to backpedal and be with him no matter what the consequences, only if he said that he wanted her.

“You don’t want me anymore?” Please...

July pleaded, she just needed to hear that he wanted her the way she wanted to be with him, then she would give up this precious baby.

Yet, Knox didn’t give her the answer that she needed.

There was a long silence between the two of them, before Knox answered her, the answer was so short, but it felt like the last nail that closed the coffin. There was no turning back from this.

“No. I don’t want you anymore.” Knox held his breath. He waited for the pain to come, but all he could feel was numb. He didn’t feel anything. Not even when he saw July’s tear fell on her cheek. He didn’t reach his hand to wipe away her tears like he usually did.

He felt like his world crumbled, shattered around his feet, but at the same time, he felt nothing...

“Do you want me to go?” July asked him, she lowered her head and looked at their hands, as she heard a weak answer of ‘yes’ that was so soft. “Can I kiss you for the last time?”

Knox lifted her chin and made her to look at him, before he kissed her gently.

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