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CHAPTER 45

"I am pregnant!" Bai Renxiang blurted out of shock with her eyes closed and head lowered.

She was frightened by Jiang Meilin's voice. Right now she looked like a child ready for some scolding or even thrashing for causing trouble.

After a while of silence, Bai Renxiang opened her eyes slightly to take a peek at her mother's expression since Jiang Meilin had not said anything since she told her she was pregnant.

Although Jiang Meilin knew what Bai Renxiang was going to say but deep down, somewhere in her heart, she wanted to hear the opposite.historical

She wanted Bai Renxiang to say it was a lie or a prank or anything. Anything apart from the 'I'm pregnant' that kept on ringing in her head.

She felt a throbbing headache immediately and slumped on the bed with her hands on her temples, massaging it to reduce the pain.

Seeing her mother scrunching her brows and holding her head, Bai Renxiang quickly rushed to her and knelt down in front of Jiang Meilin.

She wanted to help her mother massage her head like she loved but her hand was slapped away.

"Mum, are you okay? Do you want to have a glass of water?" She asked worriedly but her questions were answered with silence.

This silence made Bai Renxiang nervous and hurt at the same time. She was feeling frustrated and this frustration had started to make her eyes to water.

By now her heart beat had increased exponentially but that was not what bothered her. She hated the silence so much.

She would have preferred that her mother had begun scolding her at least that way she would know she was mad but right now...

Now she was at a dilemma. The silent treatment was always the worst.

"Mum please talk to me. Say something, please," she begged in a cracked voice but Jiang Meilin just turned her face away from her.

'I thought I was prepared. Why do hearing it from her mouth as a confirmation of her pregnancy still hurts? Why does it feel like I am being stabbed several times with a knife?' Jiang Meilin questioned in her mind.

"Mum please, ju-just do anything. Give me a sign or something. Stop ignoring me," Bai Renxiang pleaded.

All she needed was a sign, a word, anger, just anything to get a reaction from Jiang Weilong.

"Scold me, lecture me, ground me or hit me but don't avoid me please. I do not know how this pregnancy came about or how long I have been pregnant. I just got to know very late at night."

She paused, waiting and hoping that her words would sink in before continuing, her voice broken and softer as her tears found their way out of her eyelid.

"I did not want to bother you because I knew you would stress over it and stress is not what you should be going through right now even though you are healed."

There was still no answer.

Rather an eerie silence overshadowed the room, save for their breathing which felt as loud as anything right now to Bai Renxaing.

"I am sorry for keeping such a huge thing from you. I did not mean it, I swear. So please say something," Bai Renxiang tried to make her mother see reason as to her keeping the news a secret.

No one said anything and all she could do now, was leave her head lowered. She was devastated and hurt that she made her mother sad.

The next thing she knew, Jiang Meilin placed her fingers underneath Bai Renxiang's chin and lifted it up a bit so that she could see her daughter's face.

The tears did a good job staining her pretty face but it did not take away from her beauty as her mother wiped her tears away.

"Who said anything about anybody hitting anybody? I was just," she took in a deep breath, releasing a sigh and smiled.

"I was just shocked at the revelation of your pregnancy," Jiang Meilin said as helped Bai Renxiang to seat beside her on the bed.

"Why did you not tell me when you found out? You know that was selfish of you, right?" She stated. Bai Renxiang nodded her head, silently sobbing with her head still lowered.

"I did not want you to panic. I wanted to abort the baby before you found out, but-"

"YOU WHAT?"

GBAGHAN!

It felt as though the whole world would explode on her head any second.

Jiang Meilin could not believe the words that just poured out of her daughters mouth. How dare her even allow the thought to cross her mind?

"Why would you... Oh my God you wanted to get rid of an innocent life because you did not want me to know and panic? I thought Iraised you better," Jiang Meilin said in disbelief.

She was secretly thanking God for allowing her to discover this pregnancy or else only Him would have known what her daughter would have committed. She was already having goosebumps from the mere thought.

"I know you raised me even if it was for a short period of time but I did not want you to feel ashamed of me like father did."

She paused and her voice broke as she looked at her mother again.

"I-I did not want to cause more damage to your life and mine than the one it has already been before," Bai Renxiang said in tears.

Jiang Meilin knew that her daughter was having it hard at this moment of their lives. If it was not for her father, she doubt if they would have been able to survive the cruelty of the society.

Jiang Meilin hugged her daughter in hopes of comforting her. "Ssh ssh it's alright," she hushed her.

"I will never be ashamed of you, never! Now stop crying or you will make me cry too and then no one will be able to pet the other. So calm down," Jiang Meilin half scolded and half petted her.

"It is going to be alright."