334 Lóng Wei’s Past – Part 4 [Bonus chapter]

“I am tired. The Prince shall go back to his chamber,” Yu Jun said. She ignored what Lóng Wei said earlier. Earlier, the Queen had given her the work, and it had tired her out.

“You are always tired whenever I have questions from you. What a strange world!” Lóng Wei said with annoyance. He no longer called her a mother. That word he stopped using when he heard her say to Yuze that he was born out of a mistake.

“If you are again here to fight with me, then there’s no use of that. Leave before I have to use a force,” Yu Jun stated.

“I will leave after you answer me,” Lóng Wei put forward a condition.

“What do you want to know?” Yu Jun questioned him.

“Destroy the robe that you have made for Prince Xiaoming,” Lóng Wei pronounced, and she gaped at him in bewilderment. “I am your son, yet you never knit or made a single garment for me. I would have appreciated it even if I had received a single handkerchief from your hand. How could you do this to me? It has been four years and you are still the same,” Lóng Wei ended up getting emotional.

The emotional distress that he underwent because of her, he could not even explain it to anyone. He kept all his anger inside himself. He troubled others because he wanted his mother to come to him once and find out why he was like this?

But to his dismay, Yu Jun never did that. He was wounded many times during training. But unlike the mothers of other children, Yu Jun never bothered to even look at him, let alone treat his wounds.

He wanted to eat meals with his mother, drink tea with his mother, but Yu Jun never allowed that. Also, the distance had grown to a level, where Lóng Wei would feel uncomfortable being in front of her.

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Sometimes, he wanted to feel the soft hand of his mother over his head. He had heard from Qiu Mu how Xiuying used to give him an oil massage once a week.

He wanted to have a long conversation with his mother about what he had learned, what he wanted to do like the other princes and princesses.

Alas! Those desires existed only in his dreams. They could never become real.

“Did I not tell you not to show me your face? Leave the palace if you cannot bear to see all this. That would be better because people would be happy,” Yu Jun remarked again. She hurt him badly once again. No matter how many times he asked his mother, she would always answer him the same thing.

“It was not my fault,” Lóng Wei affirmed. This time his eyes didn’t hold the tears, but they held the anger and complaints. “Getting born wasn’t my fault. Why didn’t you take the poison and end both of our lives? Wouldn’t that have been better? You always tell me to die, to leave the palace. I hate you. I never despised anything in my life as much as I despise you. With each passing day, my hatred is growing. Sometimes I wonder if I’m wrong, but then you show me with your actions and words that I don’t matter to you at all.”Lóng Wei blurted out everything.

Yu Jun slapped Lóng Wei, and he placed his hand on his cheek. He looked at the floor and then promptly lifted his head to gaze into her eyes.

“Leave!” Yu Jun screamed at him.

Lóng Wei made a shaky motion with his head. “If you do not hand me the robe now, I will make sure to create a plunder in the ceremony. Will you love to see that?” Lóng Wei asked as he evilly grinned at his mother.

“That’s better. His Majesty will send you back into the cold palace. I will live in peace then,” Yu Jun stated. Lóng Wei drew his brows together. His jaw clenched in fury, and for a second, he thought about setting the place on fire.

But he would not do that? He found out that his mother loved to see him go to the cold palace. He would not go there at any cost.

“I wish you were not my mother,” Lóng Wei said and left.

Yu Jun’s eyes filled with tears and her face turned pale. She gulped the lump that had formed in her throat. Her tears were on the verge of falling.

“I also wish that I weren’t your mother. You might have been in a better place,” Yu Jun mumbled. She walked in the inner chamber instead of going behind her son.

Lóng Wei returned to his chamber after another heated argument with his mother. He always wondered why she wanted him to be dead. He wanted to ask this, but he didn’t want to break his heart with another harsh remark from his mother.

He stood by the window and tears overflew his cheeks. He had promised himself that he would not cry ever again. But every time he had a conversation with his mother, he could not control his tears. He would cry profusely in silence.

His father had gone to sign a treaty with a neighbouring kingdom while Yuze was also not in the capital. He had no one around him, with whom he could share his thoughts.

Moreover, he started to have trust issues. With the princes and the princesses, his equation was already not good. One was because his mother was a lowest level concubine and the second was his behavior.

He wiped the tears from his eyes and decided to go out of the palace to calm his mind. He wiped the tears from the back of his palm and then drank a glass of water.

He placed the cup on the table and pulled his sleeve up. He had hurt his wrist two days ago when he fell from the horse. He went to see Physician Peng to dress his wound because it was worsening.

Peng Yuxian worriedly looked at Lóng Wei while dressing the wound on his hand. “Prince Lóng Wei needs to take care of his body. I will give him a few pills which he should take for four days,” Peng Yuxian asserted and handed the tiny porcelain bottle with pills in it.

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Lóng Wei took it from Peng Yuxian and thanked him. He was ready to leave when Peng Yuxian advised Lóng Wei not to cause anymore trouble.

“Stop annoying me,” Lóng Wei said, and walked away.