author: robyn carr

"cold," she whispered against his mouth.

"hot," he said. "real hot."

she put the container on the table and fed him another spoonful, immediately offering her mouth, which he took, letting her lick the ice cream from him.

and he got harder.

"i thought we'd make it till sunset," he said. "i don't think we will..."

"dessert first?" she asked.

"dessert all night, maybe. want to play a little ice cream game?"

"i do," she said. "i've never done anything like this before."

"me, either. i bet we get the hang of it right away."

"i've never been this alone with you before," she reminded him. it was always catch as catch can at either her house or his, always the possibility someone might come home unexpectedly, a reality that made them far too quick about their lovemaking. but they were alone in the woods, on a lake, doors locked, a carton of ice cream handy. "oh, god," she said, rubbing up against him.

he led her the short distance to the bed. the fire was blazing, the room was dim and pleasant, and he put the carton down. he slowly undressed her, intermittently sharing a bite of ice cream with her. when she was naked, he got rid of his clothes as quickly as possible, joining her on the bed. her hand went to his raging hard-on and he groaned.

"i better cool you down," he said hoarsely. he grabbed himself a mouthful of ice cream and kissed her, but before he'd let her scoop it out of his mouth, he covered her erect nipple with the sweet ice cream and she arched against him. her nipple got harder and he moved to the other one, licking and sucking.

"oh, my god," she whispered. he moved back to her mouth, kissing her deeply. she smiled against his lips. "who knew?"

"turn you on, baby?"

"see for yourself," she challenged.

he slid his hand over her flat tummy and with curious fingers, found her ready for him. but he wasn't done with her.

he trailed another mouthful of ice cream over her belly button, then down to the apex of her legs, pushing them apart, putting his cold mouth on her soft moist folds, licking her hard. she squirmed under him, pushing herself against his mouth, the sweet noises that came from her making him pleasure her even more. he took another mouthful, just enough to make his tongue cold, then went after her again, holding her hips down while he lapped at her. her fingers threaded through his hair and wouldn't release him until he lifted his head, only long enough to grab a little more ice cream, torturing her in the best possible way.

he went back to her mouth, whispering against her lips. "i have to get in you," he said. "i can't wait another second."

"want me to cool you down?" she offered.

"no. i want you to come." and with that he entered, drove deep and hard, one hand on her butt, the other on the back of her head, holding her mouth against his. he growled with the effort it took to hold back long enough for her to make her moment. thankfully it didn't take long. he moved a little, deep in her, and she clenched, bit his lip, whimpered, and he felt her wonderful spasms. she held him tight, wrapped her legs around him to hold him and went a little wild with her climax. there was nothing more for him to do but join her and it was shattering. his eyes watered with the intensity and he flew. for a few seconds there he was in another solar system.

and then, panting, they slowly came back to earth. he lifted his head enough to look down into her eyes. "when i'm in you like this, i feel like i could lift the world."

she smiled sleepily. "we're all sticky."

"i'll shower you," he promised. "but i might make you sticky all over again. you make me wild." he kissed her lightly. "i have to admit, i never looked forward to a shower so much. or to ice cream. in fact, i don't think i ever liked ice cream this much before."

she laughed softly.

"what?"

"i don't think i'll ever look at a pint of vanilla the same way again."

"good." he stroked the hair back from her brow. "gina, i want you to know something. even though i was married, i never had anything like this. you're brand-new. and i love you more than you can imagine."

she put a palm against his cheek. "i know, mac. somehow i know. and i've never spent the night with a man before...."

he pulled back in surprise, holding himself up with his arms. "seriously?"

"i dated, i had a relationship with one guy that included sex, but i had ashley. i didn't stay away from her overnight. besides, i never felt like this before."

he was quiet for a minute, just looking down at her. "you know what this means, don't you?"

"hmm?"

"we really have to find a way to get married...."

"mac, our lives are a complete disaster...."

"i know," he said. "but we'll get them straightened out somehow. we have to figure out how we're going to sleep in the same bed every night. there are lots of things to work out-and we'll work them out somehow." then he frowned. "you will say yes, won't you?"

she laughed at him. "if we ever figure it out and get our families on track, i'll say yes," she promised. "but right now i'm hungry...."

"i can warm up that casserole...."

"i think i can make do on ice cream."

nine

cooper liked the tempo of his life, and this was a first for him. it was almost the end of april, and virtually every other day was sunny. sometimes they enjoyed the sun all day long. he had something of a schedule going. he liked schedules. he had been in thunder point for six months and felt more settled than he had in places he'd lived for much longer. after making sure there was coffee and sweets left for the beachcombers out on the deck, he often went out on the bay on his jet ski or paddleboard. sometimes sarah came out very early, tying hamlet up at the dock and going out on the bay with him. he had many chores during the day-fixing things, cleaning things, buying things, taking delivery on things so the bar/deli could run smoothly. evenings he served drinks and food-deli food-because the sunset was astonishing in its beauty and drew people to the beach and to his deck. and many evenings sarah was with him, like this evening.

they'd locked up the bar at about nine, gone upstairs to his room, shared a meal prepared by carrie, made excellent love and cuddled in front of the fire-a second-floor extension of the hearth he'd had built in the bar-and watched tv.

the principal people in his life had their issues-mac's ex had been around, disrupting his family life, and gina's daughter had suffered some sort of emotional problems. sarah was still troubled on and off about her future with the coast guard, except when he was holding her-then she seemed to have no worries. but his little beach bar made a surprising amount of money and he loved it. all things considered, from cooper's stand point, life was pretty stable.

and then the phone rang.

he looked first at the caller id-his parents were calling. then he glanced at his watch-it was 11:00 p.m., 1:00 a.m. in new mexico. trying to mask worry he felt given the time of night he answered the phone. "hello?"

"coop," his father said. "sorry about the time, son."

"i'm up, but it's the middle of the night there. what's going on, dad?"

"i just got a call from a man named spencer lawson, coop. he's married to bridget."

"i know who he is," cooper said. at one time cooper had been engaged to bridget. they parted over ten years ago. first they broke off their engagement because they just weren't on the same page with all that meant. then they ended it completely when bridget stopped seeing him because she'd met someone else, someone she ultimately married. "what did he want?"

"he left a number, said it was urgent that he get in touch with you. i told him i'd call you, but i wouldn't give him your number."

for a moment, cooper had a sinking feeling in his gut. "is she okay?"

"no, cooper. apparently she's sick or something. i tried to get the details out of him but he said he'd only discuss it with you. i'm sorry, that's the best i could do."

"i'll take care of it," he said. "give me his number."

after hank senior reeled off the digits, he added, "he said to call any time of day, don't worry if it's late or early-he'd be there. and, coop? let me know what this is all about, will you?"

he let go a dry laugh. "if it's not too embarrassing," cooper said.

he hung up and stared at the number. then he went to his sofa to sit beside sarah. "very strange," he said.

"what is it?"

"i told you i was engaged twice," he said. "the first time was to bridget cunningham. we dated for about six months, got engaged, couldn't agree on anything, broke up pretty soon after. i was doing contract flying for a security company that was outsourced by the army-i was away a lot. out of the country most of the time. after breaking up, we were on and off for a while. we were young-we knew pretty quick it wasn't going to work."

"what went wrong, cooper?" she asked softly.

"i'm not sure," he said. "we didn't seem to want the same things. she expected me to find a more stable job, for one thing, so i'd be around all the time and stability was not exactly my middle name. it wasn't too long before she told me there was someone else, but you know me-i mean the younger me. i didn't take her too seriously. i hadn't talked to her for a long time-months-and called her when i was back in the states. she told me she was married. to this guy," he said, showing her the phone number.

she ran a finger around his ear. "did she break your heart?"

"a little bit," he said. "i got over that pretty quick. i haven't even thought about her in a long time. now her husband needs me to call him-says it's urgent."

"call him," she said.

"it's late, and i see by the area code, they're still in texas. he did tell my dad not to worry about the time. maybe tomorrow..."

she laughed at him. "men and women are so different. aren't you curious?"

"i can be curious until tomorrow," he said.

"listen, if you don't want to call him while i'm here, i was planning to go home, anyway," she said.

he grinned at her. "well, i never thought i'd say this, especially to a woman, but i don't have any secrets from you." he punched in the numbers. the call was answered on the first ring.

"stand by," spencer said rather than "hello." cooper could hear some moving around; he heard a door close. then came the hello in a stronger voice.

"spencer lawson?" cooper asked.

"yes. cooper?"

"you asked my father to forward a message to me? you wanted me to call?"

cooper heard him take a deep breath. "there's no way to ease you into this, cooper. bridget wants to see you. she's dying."

he sat up straighter. "what?"

"cancer. she's been fighting it like a trouper, but the days of the fight are over. we suspended chemo, hospice is here, her time is short. and she really needs to see you."

"why?" he asked.

"trust me, it's important. you need money for travel? for time away from work? whatever it takes, i'll cover it."

"spencer, come on-we don't have any unfinished business. that was all a long time ago. she told me she was happy with you."