plus, faith was sort of easing back into manningsport. and hiding from jeremy, let's be honest, who was a regular at o'rourke's. not only was jeremy the town doctor, he also gave to every charity that came a-knocking, sponsored four little league teams and owned a vineyard, employing about a dozen people. he was probably the most popular man in town, if not on planet earth.

"another round it is," greg said, touching the back of colleen's hand. "on the house to make up for the delay." because, yes, she was that beautiful, she could stab him in the eye with her fork, and he'd still want to take her home.

"you're a witch or something," faith said as the waiter walked away. "i'm filled with admiration."

"i may have slept with him this summer. images are coming back to me. a white shag rug, a crisp, dry riesling, from blue heron, of course... anyway, have you run into any old friends or enemies?"

"jessica dunn is shooting me the death stare as we speak," faith said. "is she still slutty?"

"can't say that i know. have you seen anyone else?"

"theresa defilio. she's expecting again. isn't that nice?"

"so nice. and what about anyone else?" colleen asked, narrowing her pretty eyes. "anyone male who used to be engaged to you whose name starts with, oh, i don't know...j?"

faith sighed. "i emailed him, okay? are you proud? we're getting together next week."

colleen sighed. "do you still talk to his parents?"

faith nodded. "yep. we had lunch down in pacific grove last month."

"you're a saint."

"that's true. but if someone calls me 'poor thing' one more time, i may go postal and kill everyone around me. except children and dogs. and old people. and you. and connor. fine, i won't kill anyone. but it's driving me crazy."

"i know!" colleen said happily. "i'm suddenly really popular, too. even more popular, i should say. people come in and plunk themselves down and say, 'coll, is she...' tragic pause '...okay?' and i say, 'sure! why? oh, you mean because dr. perfect dumped her at the altar? ancient history, friend! she barely remembers.'"

"thank you!" faith said. "i've been getting these looks every time i go out. did you see how hugo came out to talk to me? first time ever." she took a slug of her martini. "i've been coming here all my life, and the owner only just spoke to me today."

"don't worry, hon," colleen said. "the gossips will find something else to talk about. someone's wife will cheat or someone will embezzle from the library board and they'll all think about something other than you and jeremy."

"we can only hope," faith said.

greg brought them their drinks and some cute little egg rolls, smiling at colleen and ignoring faith, who swiped another bread plate from an empty table.

"hey, speaking of the library," faith said, "julianne kammer, remember her? skinny, brown hair, very nice, threw up in seventh grade during the math test?"

"yes, i remember. i'm not the one who's been living on the left coast, honey."

"right," faith said. "well, she asked me to do a job while i'm here in town. the little courtyard behind the children's wing. i'm gonna have a little maze, see. kids love that stuff. and i said i'd do it for free. because i'm so nice."

"and a little drunk, am i right? how is it that a holland can't hold her liquor?"

"i'm a throwback to my puritan ancestors." hmm. yes. she might be slurring a little.

"so is the time right for you to come back permanently? frisco was never supposed to be your forever home."

"san francisco."

"right, right, please forgive me. hold that thought, i have to hit the ladies' room." colleen got up, leaving faith alone.

faith took another sip of her martini, despite her increasingly numb tongue, and glanced around. hugo's had been a good choice; it was quieter here, designed more for the tourist industry than a year-round, townie kind of place. the view of the lake was gorgeous, the tablecloths were crisp and white, sprigs of orchids in little vases. a group was just being seated; they'd been at blue heron today. faith had filled in at the gift shop and recognized the pink teddy bear sweatshirt on one woman. otherwise, hugo's held no one she recognized, other than jessica dunn, who was a big meanie.

faith and jeremy used to come here. they had a special table, right over there by the window, where they'd talk and hold hands and occasionally kiss. sometimes levi would come, too, to see jessica dunn (known as jessica does back in high school). it was always a little awkward when the four (or three) of them hung out. jessica had never liked faith...and neither had levi, for that matter.

while faith had wholeheartedly believed that every girl on earth should have a boyfriend exactly like jeremy lyon, an odd charge filled the air when levi was around, and it only grew when jessica joined them. jeremy was much more attractive (faith always thought of him as an exotic prince, with his swarthy skin and dark, dark eyes), but levi had something jeremy didn't. heterosexuality, she would learn.

but back in high school, levi just made her nervous. he'd look at jessica with those sleepy green eyes, his straight, dark blond hair always slightly messy, and you just knew those two were doing it-unlike herself and jeremy, who were much more, uh, virtuous.

once, faith had caught levi and jessica making out in hugo's coatroom, and it had stopped her in her tracks, the lazy hunger in that kiss, slow and deep and unhurried. levi had looked like a man years before the rest of the boys-thickly muscled arms and big hands that were the speculation of every female at manningsport high. then those hands had slid down jess's back, pulling her h*ps close against his own in an unmistakably sexual move, his mouth never leaving jessica's as he leaned into her.

holy hormones.

faith had whirled around and hightailed back to the table and her boyfriend, her perfect, loving, protective jeremy. her face had been hot, her hands shaking. crikey, she'd hoped they hadn't seen her. that little display had been so...crass. yes. crass.

back then, she'd thought the reason jeremy never kissed her like that was because they truly loved each other. it was something more pure and special than simple lust, that...that rutting that levi and jessica surely did.

right.

"i hate that bathroom," colleen said, pulling faith out of the bog of memories. "it's freezing, first of all, and those automatic toilets are dangerous, like they could suck down an entire child." she sat back down. "hey, did you notice i'm wearing a push-up bra, holland? for you. connor always says women get more dressed up for each other than for men."

"it's true. i'm wearing a microfiber slim-nation undergarment for you."

"really? just for me? no wonder you're my best friend."

"you're welcome. but you always wear a push-up bra."

"you have a point. but i'm wearing glittery eye shadow, see?" colleen batted her long, black, completely natural and totally unfair lashes for faith to admire.

suddenly, the back of faith's neck prickled. she felt it first, that reverberation in her stomach, then heard it.

jeremy's voice.

oh, god, he had the best voice, low and warm and always with a laugh behind it, as if he found everyone and everything utterly wonderful.

"the time has come," colleen confirmed.

"no! no, no, no. i'm, i'm not ready. i hate this sweater." faith swallowed. "coll, what do i do? what do i do?"

"um...go say hi?"

"i can't! i have to lose fifteen pounds! plus, i'm not ready. i have to...prepare."

colleen laughed. "just bite the bullet! you look great."

"no. really. not yet." she risked a glance at him-broad shoulders, that beautiful black hair, and he was laughing now, oh, crap! all he had to do was turn forty-five degrees, and he'd see her.

"bathroom," she said, and bolted.

she made it. no one else was in here, praise the lord. her heart was doing a fair impression of secretariat at the belmont, and there was a good possibility she was about to puke.

faith caught a glimpse of her face in the mirror. she definitely wasn't ready. first of all, the fifteen pounds. and her hair was dopey today. also, she'd maybe put on some glittery eye shadow and something sexier than a black wrap sweater that looked like something a mennonite would wear to a funeral. honestly, what had she been thinking when she bought it? it wasn't even low-cut.

no. she had to prepare, because if she was going to see he who left her at the altar, she was going to look amazing and have some remarks planned. not have two martinis inside her, and look at this! a blob of egg roll on her boob, and colleen had said nothing! some friend.

okay. she'd just call colleen, ask her to pay the bill and then let her know when jeremy wasn't looking, and she'd bolt to freedom.

futtocks. she'd left her purse (and phone) at the table.

well. she had to pee, anyway. terror did that to her. going into the stall, she unwound her sweater-the microfiber slim-nation undergarment (try saying that five times fast) required that she practically strip na**d to use the bathroom-and wrestled up her undergarment. the martinis, while relaxing and excellent, didn't help her in the grace and coordination department, let alone the slutty, high-heeled boots she'd donned for colleen.

men never had to deal with this, faith thought. men didn't hide in bathrooms and wrestle microfiber and pantyhose. totally not fair. men had it easy. did men get bikini waxed and wear uncomfortable underwear? no, they did not. faith would bet her life that a man had invented thongs. men sucked.

as she yanked the microfiber slim-nation undergarment back into position, she reached for her sweater-so complicated! she got one arm in, couldn't find the other one, groped, missed...and all of a sudden, heard the roar of the child-sucking toilet. there was a tug on her arm, and faith staggered back, watching in horror as her sweater peeled off and disappeared halfway down the toilet, one black arm dangling out like a dead snake.

colleen had been right. the toilet was on steroids.

"well, this...bites," she announced, her voice echoing. her sweater was in the toilet and obviously she wasn't going to wear it. she picked up the dry sleeve and gave a tentative tug. whoosh-there was the damn sensor again, and just like that, the sweater was gone.

and faith was alone in the bathroom in a red skirt, slutty boots, a black 36-d push-up bra and beige microfiber slim-nation undergarment slip that stopped under her boobage, the only reason she could still fit into this outfit.

she was trapped. wait, wait...she had a raincoat in colleen's car; coll had driven tonight, and it had looked like rain, but it hadn't rained, so she'd left it in the car. there. a plan. she'd just call colleen, ask her to get the raincoat, bring it in, then they could flee like the wind. also, she should stop drinking martinis.

she turned for her purse. dang. right, it was back at the table.

faith chewed on her lip for a second, then glanced down and adjusted her right breast. okay. time to summon the cavalry.

she tiptoed to the door-why tiptoe, who knew?-and peeked out. to see the actual dining room, she was going to have to leave the bathroom, go down the hallway a few steps and take her chances. but she should be able to flag down colleen, who, after all, might possibly remember that her oldest friend was in distress.

she opened the door. no one was in sight. one step out. another step. she crossed her arms over her chest, then over her microfiber slim-nation undergarment. which did she want to hide more, the boobage, or the fat-squishing undergarment? the microfiber slim-nation undergarment it was. another step. she could see three empty tables, but the noise level had escalated. another tour bus, most likely. one more step and, yes, she could see her purse. faith leaned forward a little more, ready to hiss at her friend to come save her.