"we never did that," i tell him, something he should know since he was there the night we had sex. we only did it once and it was perfect, until two days later when he called to tell me we couldn't see each other anymore. "i mean, i have never done that." his eyes went wide, then darkened.

"that makes me very happy." his mouth comes back down to mine; it feels like he is trying to brand me with his mouth, completely controlling mine. his hand on my face skims slowly down the side of my breast, along my side, and stops at the edge of my panties. i can feel the wetness between my thighs. my clit starts pulsing, needing attention. teasingly, his fingers travel on the inside edge of my panties, then just below my belly button; my stomach muscles contract. my pulse speeds up, and finally his fingers slide in and over my clit, my body jumping at the contact. "is all this for me?" he whispers. my answer is a whimper. "you're gonna have to be quiet, baby; my family is out there," he says softly. my body freezes-how could i have forgotten where we were? before i can protest, he slides two fingers inside me, his mouth covering mine, and all thoughts leave my head as i moan down his throat. "that was close. now, if you want me to eat your pu**y, you're going to have to make sure that you're quiet, can you do that?" i shake my head, making him chuckle. "if you're not quiet, then you will be spanked when i take you to my house and the kids go to sleep."

"cash." i feel my inner walls clench.

"you like that, huh?" his fingers move faster inside me and i can feel an orgasm building. "you're not allowed to come until my mouth is on you." i want to yell at him to get to it, but he just stands there, his eyes on mine. "jesus, you should see yourself right now." i think he's going to kiss me again, but instead, he nips my chin then drops to his knees, lifting my thigh to his shoulder. his fingers tug my thong to the side and his mouth is on me in an instant. i start grinding down against his tongue. i can feel my orgasm building-it's going to be huge, life-altering. and i know i'm not going to be quiet when i come.

"you have to stop." i push on his head, trying to get away. "cash, i can't be quiet," i whimper. he doesn't stop; if anything, his pace increases, his tongue and fingers moving faster. "i'm going to come," i cry as i feel myself begin to contract around his fingers. my skin lights from the inside, and a million colors explode behind my eyes. i feel like i'm going to pass out. "cash," i moan loudly before i catch myself and bite down on my arm. my head is back, eyes closed, and i feel my foot touch the floor as he lets my leg down from his shoulder. my legs feel wobbly, but he holds my hips until he stands so he can pull me to his chest. i don't know how long we stand like that, but it feels like forever. all i want to do is curl up with him and go to sleep.

"i love the way you taste, and i love the way you let go the minute my mouth is on you," he says quietly. i can feel his hard length against my stomach, and my hand starts to move towards the button of his jeans. his hand grabs mine, stopping me. "there isn't enough time for that. when i finally get inside you, i'm going to want to take my time and have you in my bed, not here in my brother's shower. though i do plan on having you in the shower...just not this one," he says, and i can hear the smile in his voice. "we need to go out to the party; everyone is going to be wondering where we are."

"oh no," i groan, rubbing my face. everyone is going to know what we have been up to while we've been in the bathroom.

"everyone's outside." he tilts my head back with both his hands at my jaw. "you're so beautiful." he kisses me softly on my lips then my forehead before opening the shower curtain. "you should just put the suit back on under your dress."

"i'm not wearing a bikini."

"lil, your body is perfect, and it looks good on you. wear the suit."

"i thought you said-"

"no, i said that i didn't want kenton or sven to see you in it, not that it doesn't look good, because it does."

"i don't know." i pick my dress up from where it fell into the tub when he surprised me.

"baby, look at me." my eyes go to his. "you look perfect; wear that suit."

"cash."

"our daughter grew inside of you. i loved your body before, and i love it even more now."

"fine, i'll wear it." i can't help but smile. i put the bikini bottoms back on, then the top before pulling my dress over my head. once i'm dressed again, we head outside. cash was right; everyone is out around the pool, and all the kids are playing out in the large grassy area where a large kids' playhouse is set up. then i see it-a large dog the size of a horse. one of the little girls is laying over its back while it walks around the playhouse sniffing the grass.

"is that beast?" i stop, looking at cash.

"yep, and the little girl on his back is july." he laughs as we watch her try to stay on the dog's back; he acts like he doesn't even notice her. cash points out each of the girls; three of them are asher and november's july, may, and june, and one is hanna, who is trevor and liz's daughter.

"so jax is the only boy?"

"right now, yeah, but liz is pregnant, and they found out a few days ago that they are having a boy."

"wow." i look around the backyard filled with people and all the kids running around. we walk around while cash introduces me to everyone, then wander over to the grill where an older gentleman-obviously, cash and his brothers' dad-is standing with asher.

"dad, i want you to meet lilly. lilly, this is my dad, james."

"nice to meet you, sir."

"oh no, now i gotta train another one." he points the spatula in his hand towards me. "you call me james or dad-preferably dad-none of this 'sir' business."

"okay." i smile and laugh.

"i feel old enough with all my grandkids running around calling me papa or grandpa. i don't need all my pretty daughters-in-laws callin' me sir."

"i'm no-"

"oh, how sweet!" a woman's voice cuts me off. "you want cash's new pu**y to call you daddy." i look up and see a beautiful woman with short shorts, a halter-top, and shoulder-length dark brown hair. she's tall and wearing wedge heels, making her even more towering.