travis dix took the stage with his band, and the audience cheered. in a moment he was singing his big hit, "stomp my heart and shave my mullet," and most of the audience was singing along.

stomp my heart and shave my mullet

all your lies stick in my gullet

no more cash is in my wullet

baby, we're through

but now i've got a better 'do' allie chose to inhabit a college-age girl in the left mezzanine who was standing and dancing to the song with her friends. allie carefully balanced herself within the girl, taking physical control of most of her body, but not putting her to sleep. it would be more interesting this way! keeping her awake would be tricky, but allie successfully hid in a blind spot of the girl's consciousness, so her presence wouldn't be detected. as soon as allie took over, the girl's body stopped gyrating, and allie raised her right hand, putting the tip of her thumb to her nose, and spread out her fingers.

"what are you doing?" asked one of the girl's friends.

the girl, fully awake, and still in control of her mouth said, "i ... don't know. my thumb is stuck to my nose!"

"suzie, honestly!" said the friend. "travis might see you, and then we'll never get backstage!"

allie silently giggled, and began to waggle her fingers.

"suzie!"

"i know! i'm trying to stop!" clearly suzie had no idea what had possessed her to behave like this. it probably never occurred to her that she actually was possessed.

travis dix continued to sing. then, toward the end of the song, a beefy security guard came down the aisle and pointed a flashlight right at suzie.

great, thought allie, now i got the girl into trouble.

but the guard smiled. "got you!" the guard yelled, over the blasting music. "now it's my turn!"

it was milos!

allie peeled herself out of suzie, who shook her head, looked at her hands, and in a few moments, had put the weird incident aside and was dancing to the music again. milos was gone, off to find someone to hide in, and allie counted to ten, then went looking for him.

she found that this game required more than just surfing. she had to jump from person to person to get around, but also had to linger every now and then to get a good view of the different sections of the audience, because in everlost the crowd was pretty much a blur.

she started with the upper balcony, then worked her way across, then down. there was no sign of milos, and allie began to wonder if maybe he wasn't playing fair.

meanwhile, travis dix finished his song, and the crowd roared.

"hello, nashville!" he said, and the crowd roared even louder. he waited until the cheers died down before he spoke again. "this song goes out to a very special girl," he announced. "this song is for ... allie the outcast."

allie snapped her eyes to the stage and watched in disbelief as travis dix--the travis dix--lifted his thumb to his nose, and wiggled his fingers at the audience. to allie's amazement, the entire audience responded by doing it right back to him!

allie laughed out loud--a big, booming belly laugh, because now she was in a huge man with a voice that echoed like a bass drum. she skipped out of him and surfed her way back to the stage.

when she got there, milos was peeling himself out of travis, who now looked strangely at the audience thumbing their noses at him. then he looked to his band, shrugged, and began the next song.

allie couldn't stop laughing. "you win!" she told milos. "that was great! no one's ever dedicated a song to me before!"

"now we shall enjoy the concert," milos said. "after all, we can have front-row seats," and he gestured to any number of fleshies in the front row, but allie shook her head. she didn't feel right stealing the concert from fans by putting them to sleep for the entire performance--and keeping a fleshie conscious was bound to be problematic. from where they stood on the stage, allie could see off into the wings, where a couple of roadies stood, not doing much of anything.

"those roadies probably travel with the band," allie said. "they won't care if they sleep through a performance."

"excellent--but we should switch places a few times--it is never a good idea to stay in the same fleshie for too long."

so they jacked the two roadies, and watched the whole concert from backstage. then, when it was done, to make their concertgoing experience complete, they jacked a couple of fans in the audience, so they could flow out with the crowd, and enjoy, if only for a few minutes, the charged excitement of the audience around them.

allie almost gasped as they left the warmth of the theater, and stepped out into the cool night. it was a subtle change, but powerful to an afterlight, because temperature change meant nothing without flesh to feel it. a gentle breeze blew through the parking lot, and it felt soft and feathery on her arms. she swore she could feel each and every goose bump, and it was wonderful!

"i think you liked this, yes?" said milos.

she turned, and his fleshie was right next to hers, bringing up a hand, to gently caress allie's cheek. allie was caught off guard. "don't," she said, taking a step away from him.

"why not?"

"well, for one, your fleshie's a girl!"

he shrugged. "so what? yours is a boy."

allie looked at herself. her arms were covered with hair. no wonder the breeze felt so feathery.

"this is just too weird," she said, and peeled herself out. the living world shifted into soft focus, and the breeze now passed through her, so easy to ignore.

milos peeled out of his fleshie. "i never thought to play hide-and-seek before," he told allie. "i came here to teach you, and it is you who teaches me!"

"so what's tomorrow's lesson?" she asked.

"ah," said milos. "tomorrow's is the best lesson of all!"

as they left to rejoin the others, milos held his hand out to her as always, and as always allie didn't take it, but she couldn't deny that she felt more and more tempted.

while allie spent her days being tutored by milos, mikey spent his time practicing his own skills as well, although he practiced alone. each day he went off to some secret and solitary deadspot, and there he would spend the day focusing on the one thing he could do better than anyone else. change. it was the one aspect of his existence that he still had control over--or at least he could have control if he practiced enough.

allie was off with milos. fine. he couldn't change that. he couldn't control what they did or said to each other. but he could grow feathers and scales. he could sprout extra arms and legs. he could even grow a rhino horn and moose antlers. and just like skinjacking, changing himself was irresistible--for who can resist their nature?

the transformations were becoming easier and easier to achieve. the hard part was changing back ... but just as allie was beginning to master the finer points of skinjacking, mikey was mastering the art of bringing himself back to normal. it was all a matter of wanting to be mikey mcgill more than he wanted to be all those other tweaked and twisted creations. what made it difficult was that, with all the things he could be, he found it harder and harder to want to be mikey mcgill.

on the night that allie and milos played games at the grand ole opry, mikey was caught in the act.

he had found a nice sized deadspot--a street that had been torn down to build a freeway overpass. none of the buildings had crossed into everlost, but someone must have had fond feelings for the street itself, because it had crossed over, along with all the streetlights, which still cast a pale glow all around him. it was careless of him to be practicing his transformations in such a wide-open, brightly lit space. considering the transformation he was working, he shouldn't have been caught at all, because he quite literally had eyes in the back of his head, among other places. he had been trying to see how many eyeballs he could sprout. he had gotten up to fifty-three--they were popping up all over his body like large blue-eyed chicken pox, and each of them had a unique perspective on the world around him.

when he heard a gasp behind him, every available eye turned toward it, and he saw squirrel trying to run away.

wasting no time, mikey took off after him, turning his arms and legs into tentacles that he used to fling himself from one lamppost to another, flying right over squirrel's head, and landing directly in front of him. mikey gave himself a set of fangs as he snarled, just to addle squirrel's acorn-size brain even more.

"please, please don't hurt me," squirrel whined, which was stupid, because mikey couldn't hurt him. that was the blasted problem with being an afterlight. he turned one of his tentacles into a jagged green insect claw, and thrust it forward, wedging squirrel's neck against a lamppost with a clang.

"you didn't see this," mikey said, pleased at the slithery, inhuman sound of his own voice. "and if you tell anyone you did, i'll use this claw to snap off your useless little head."

whether or not he could follow through on the threat didn't matter; it was enough to scare squirrel into absolute obedience.

"yes, sir," squeaked squirrel. "i didn't see nothing! i didn't see nothing!"

mikey forced his claw and tentacles back into arms and legs, then sucked all his eyeballs back into his body, leaving only the standard two to glare at squirrel. his voice returned to normal. "now, we'll go back to the others, pretend this never happened, and everyone will be happy."

squirrel gave a few fast, brain-rattling nods. "sure, sure, everyone will be happy," and squirrel ran off, stumbling over his own feet.

mikey laughed and laughed. the choice to become terrifying--if only for a moment--ensured squirrel's silence, so it served its purpose. but mikey could not deny how good it had felt to be a monster once more.

chapter 13 bye-bye, miss american pie

allie couldn't say she particularly enjoyed the company of the nashville afterlights. every vapor of afterlights was different, and this group was so standoffish--even while attempting to be hospitable--that the time spent with them was awkward at best. it was a relief to leave them behind.

"nobody trusts skinjackers," milos commented as they hit the road once more. "mary hightower's books make it difficult for us."

"someday," said allie, "i'll set everyone straight."

"someday," said milos, "i would like to set mary hightower straight, personally."

mikey was silent on the matter. allie found mikey to be silent about everything. he had always been somewhat inscrutable, but now he seemed so distant that allie found walking beside him had become almost painful.

"talk to me, mikey," she begged him.

"why?" he asked. "i've got nothing to say."

"say anything! it'll make the day go faster."

"no, it won't," he said, glancing ahead of them at milos, moose, and squirrel. and that was that. silence returned--and although allie was tempted to catch up with the others, where at least there was laughter and conversation, she resisted, and hung back with mikey, but resented it.

at dusk they rested, and both mikey and milos disappeared. allie asked moose and squirrel about it. moose, who had limited peripheral vision out of his helmet, hadn't seen much of anything, but squirrel had.

"milos went off that way," he told her, pointing to a neighborhood off the side of the road. "he said he was looking for something."