"does it not worry you for other reasons?" sister eonette puts an odd emphasis on the word other, an emphasis that has me pressing my ear closer to the door.

"you mean other than sister vereda's illness leaving us sightless at a time when our young duchess is fending off angry suitors and trying to keep the french from sweeping in and claiming our duchy as their own? when our country is threatened by civil war and risking outright invasion?" the reverend mother's voice is drier than the week-old bread we feed the pigs. my thoughts fly immediately to ismae and sybella and countless others out in the world. without a seeress, how will we guide their hands? this will leave them exposed and instructionless when they can least afford to be.

"i should not have to point out to you that it is rare enough for one of mortain's handmaidens to take ill, even one as old as sister vereda. does that not hint at some-"

"enough!" the abbess's voice slices through the air, cutting short the words i was so breathlessly waiting to hear. "you are not to share your doubts or concerns with anyone. have sister thomine sent to my office immediately."

there is a long, heavy pause that is finally broken by sister eonette. "but of course, reverend mother." her voice drips with sarcasm so sharp it is almost mockery. i expect the abbess to take her to task for it, to slap her or order her to do penance for showing such disrespect, but she does not.

the soft tread of sister eonette's footsteps approaching the chamber door spurs me to action. quickly, before she exits, i scamper down the hall, then begin walking toward the office so i am a good six paces away when sister eonette steps out. she glances at me. "she has a meeting with sister thomine," she tells me.

"is sister thomine in there already?" i ask innocently.

"no, i am to fetch her."

"i will only take a minute." i give her a quick, cheerful smile meant to appease her, but she simply jerks one shoulder in an annoyed shrug. "very well, but i warn you, she is not in good humor this morning."

"thank you for the warning, sister."

she nods curtly, then brushes past me to fetch sister thomine. with my head swirling full of questions, i rap softly on the abbess's door.

"come in."

it has taken me well over five years to be able to enter this office without my heart racing in fear. i am pleased that today all i must fear is that the abbess will sense my curiosity.

"annith!" the abbess puts down her quill. even though she smiles, it does not reach her eyes, and her skin is pulled tight with worry. "what a lovely surprise. have we a meeting today that i forgot?"

"no, reverend mother," i say as i curtsy. "i just came to inform you that a new girl has arrived, sent from the abbess at saint mer."

"ah, yes. the abbess had written to me of her." she reaches for a small pile of correspondence and removes a letter from the top. "her father thought her cursed and wanted nothing to do with her, so she was raised by her mother's sister, until that woman died giving birth to her own child. her name is melusine." the abbess wrinkles her nose at that. "an altogether frivolous and silly name."

"the child chose it herself," i explain. "perhaps an attempt to grasp the very things that others feared her for and remake them as something lovely and mysterious."

the abbess looks up at me. "you are most likely correct, and very kind to have thought of that. she may keep it, then." she leans back in her chair. "you have such a deft touch with newly arrived girls, i wonder if we should have you serve as our novice mistress. at least until you are called by mortain."

we have not had a novice mistress in years, not since the abbess herself-then known as sister etienne-held that position under the former abbess, whom we called the dragonette.

she arches her brow, her mouth quirking in rare humor. "since you look as if you have just swallowed a cup full of verjuice, i gather that you are not much pleased by that idea."

"while i do enjoy helping with the new girls, i fear that if i were to focus solely on that, my other skills and reflexes could easily grow dull so that i would not be ready when mortain's call did come."

it was the abbess who kept me from despair when ismae was sent out and i was once more left behind. she assured me it could have nothing to do with my skills or dedication, for who was more skilled or dedicated than i? clearly, it was some whim of the god. she was certain he was saving me for something extraordinary.

"very well, then. but from what i hear, you have surpassed many of your teachers in their fields."

i cannot help but savor her praise. not because she is stingy with it-she is not-but because i so desperately need it to fill the hole that opened up inside me the day ismae was chosen over me.

perhaps fearing the praise will go to my head, the abbess changes the subject. "and how are preparations for midwinter coming along?"

"aveline and loisse have both grown so much that they need new white cloaks, but sister beatriz is taking care of that. she has assured me they will be ready by the midwinter ceremony."

"and how does young audri fare?"

"she is fine. the fumes from the mandrake root only made her sick. sister serafina says she will fully recover. her appetite is good, her bodily humors are in balance, and she sleeps deeply, with no nightmares or other problems. she should be ready to join the others for lessons as soon as this afternoon, if you wish."

"make it so, then. there is no reason to keep her idle. and lisabet? how is she?"

i smile. "also fine. indeed, she has found a new way to mimic death and is much pleased with herself."

the abbess sighs, as if bracing for the worst. "and loisse's arm?"

"as you suspected, the fall from her horse did not break her wrist, merely sprained it. she also will be well enough for the midwinter ceremony, although she will have to carry her torch with her left hand."

"that will ruin the symmetry."

i try to keep the surprise out of my voice. "you would rather she did not participate?"

she waves her hand. "no, no. it is just a minor annoyance, an imperfection that cannot be helped."

"she will not try riding her horse while standing up again, i assure you." i do not tell her that loisse was doing it in an attempt to match my own skills, as there is no legitimate reason for an assassin to ride in that position, and i fear the abbess will recognize it as sinful pride.

"very well. thank you, annith." she picks up her quill, my sign that i am dismissed. i curtsy once more, then turn to leave the chamber, but pause when i reach the door. a question hovers on my lips, but before i can ask it, the abbess speaks. "i will save you a trip to the rookery," she says without looking up from her work. "there has been no word from either ismae or sybella."

"thank you, reverend mother," i say as i close the door behind me. i am touched by how well she knows me, that even with her own problems weighing so heavily upon her, she takes the time to reassure me. for her problems do weigh heavily upon her, i realize. it was clear in the tightness around her eyes, and the grim set to her mouth. she has always been the strongest among us. even when the great tragedy struck our convent seven years ago, she was the one to keep her head and move us forward when others were wont to wail and wring their hands.

sister eonette's veiled insinuations have plucked at my long-held vigilance, and seeing the abbess's distress causes every muscle in my body to grow tight. the need to know what is afoot is like a small hungry creature yapping at my heels.

i quickly check the hallway to be certain no one is coming, then dart into the short corridor hidden behind a tapestry of saint arduinna pointing her silver arrow at the dark, cloaked figure of mortain. it leads to the small, private chapel that opens into the abbess's office. few know about it, and i only learned of it because once, when i was five years old and locked in the wine cellar as punishment, i had overheard sister appollonia and sister magdelena discussing it, neither of them realizing my big ears were merely one thick door away.

it is a habit i developed when young, collecting secrets like a miser collects coins. i would never have survived my years with the dragonette if i had not read every scrap of paper that crossed my path, listened at every door, and peered through every keyhole, trying to determine what she expected of me so i could meet those expectations as soon as possible and avoid the painful consequences of disappointing her.

even though the dragonette has been dead these last seven years, i have not been able to cast the habit aside. but, just like a miser with his coins, i have no intention of ever parting with any of these secrets. instead, i use them to soothe the raw and chafed places of my soul and remind myself that others at the convent, others with skills more remarkable than my own, also possess human flaws.

i push aside the tapestry that hides the chapel door, then carefully lift the latch and let myself in. i settle into position just as a sharp rap sounds on the abbess's office door. "come in." the abbess's voice is faint but distinct.

both ismae and sybella possess the ability to sense the presence of others, even when a door or a wall stands between them. it is yet one more gift that i lack. however, i have learned to compensate by growing adept at recognizing the nuns without seeing them. sister beatriz has a light tread, as if dancing on the balls of her feet, while sister widona moves so silently, one almost feels her movement rather than hears it. sister serafina drags her left foot every so slightly, and sister thomine is a great stomper, with loud, sturdy steps that can be heard four rooms away. unless she is fighting-then she is as silent as the wind and as deadly as an arrow.

"you sent for me, reverend mother?" i hear sister thomine say.

"close the door, please."

a faint click of the latch as it is closed, then quiet. "how are matelaine and sarra coming along in their training?"

there is a long pause that makes me think that whatever sister thomine was expecting, this was not it. "well enough," she says at last. "sarra is skilled and competent, but also lazy and unwilling to push herself. matelaine has less natural talent, but is far more committed. unfortunately, her unique skills do not aid her in her tasks. why do you ask? they are young yet. surely the next one to be sent out is annith?" i wish to hug sister thomine for giving voice to the thoughts in my head.

"sister vereda has taken ill." the abbess's words are clipped. "she is too ill to see for us anymore. i think annith may be called upon to take the seeress's place."

at first, the words do not make sense to me-it is as if the abbess has begun speaking in some foreign tongue i have never heard. or as if the thick wall between us has inexplicably distorted her words. but a faint trembling begins in my gut and spreads throughout my limbs, as if my body understands the words before my mind does.

"but annith is our most skilled novitiate in years. frankly, i am surprised you sent ismae out before her, as ismae had been here only three years and annith has trained her entire life. why would we waste those skills by having her be seeress?"

i hold my breath, waiting to hear the answer.

"i do not remember putting you in charge of such decisions." the abbess's voice is as tight as a newly stretched drum skin. "annith has excelled in every task we have set before her. there is no reason to think that augury will be any different."

there is a short pause before sister thomine speaks again, this time so softly i can barely make out the words. "but will she welcome that fate? again, she has trained since she was a babe to be an instrument of death. indeed, i believe that is what allowed her to survive her years with the dragonette-"