"oh. yes. thank you, i'll do that." i took the list, scarcely seeing the names. "i'll see you later, then."

"i'm afraid you will, and often." he paused. "you didn't know none of them, did you?" he asked curiously.

"no. i don't think i did. and it's too late now."

"humph. well, i admit i thought you might flinch a bit when you saw those names. but either you're cold as ice or you never knew them at all. these fellows aren't dead from plague, nevare. these are the ones they found dead around your wagon in the stable. doctor still don't know what killed them. he wanted to keep them a bit longer, figure it out, but with all the folks sick and needing the beds, he told me, 'just get them in the ground. we'll sort it all out later.' you didn't know nothing about them, huh?"

a chill went up my back. ebrooks had been testing me with that list. i tried to speak slowly as if jolted by his news. "someone found my wagon? and my horse? i got jumped a couple days ago. hit on the head. when i woke up, i'd been robbed. my horse and wagon were gone. i managed to walk back here and didn't do much for the next day or so. you think they were the ones who jumped me?"

"well. i known them a little. never figured them for thieves. not that they were gentlemen, either. mean as a mad dog, that was elje. and peer just liked to see blood. everyone knew that about him. none of the whores ever wanted his money. still, i hate to see any of us go like that. they were all twisted up like poisoned cats. that's no death for a soldier."

a terrible tingling ran over me. in a fit of anger, i'd killed these men. it had been vengeance for what they had done to me, and yet it still bothered me. horribly. ebrooks was right. execution by unseen magic was not a fitting death for any soldier. i felt as if i was made of wood as i lifted a numbed hand to wave a farewell to ebrooks. he waved back at me and slapped the reins on the horse's back.

i fetched my spade and began moving earth down onto the coffins. the first few shovelfuls woke an empty thumping from the coffin below, but soon i was shoveling earth onto earth. i'd finished the first grave and was carefully packing the mounded earth into a smooth heap before it occurred to me how commonplace this had become to me. i hadn't even breathed a prayer over them.

neither had ebrooks. he'd behaved as if he'd dropped off a load of grain sacks. all my life, i'd always heard of our glorious military tradition of respect for the dead. after battles, our soldiers were always buried with pomp, ceremony, and reverence. the military cemeteries in the west were well tended, planted with flowers and trees and solemnized with ornamental statues. not here. here we planted our dead like potatoes.

speck plague had made death mundane. dealing with it had become something we did efficiently. mourning would come later, when danger had passed and we had time for reflection. it saddened me, but on a deep level of familiarity, i understood it. it was no different from how i had been forced to bury my mother, sister, and brother.

i put my foot on the shovel and pushed it deep into the grassed-over heap of soil. the first shovelful of earth and gravel rattled down onto the coffin's wooden lid. it was the only music that would be played to memorialize this passing.

the day was warm, and sweat had long since soaked my shirt to my back. i toiled doggedly on. my head throbbed. my brief sleep of the night before had not rested me. on the contrary, whenever i allowed my mind to stray to that "dream," i felt even more drained of energy and purpose. i did not think that olikea would make a threat she could not fulfill. the only way i could distract myself from that anxiety was to worry about spink and epiny and amzil and the children. had the plague descended on their house as well? if it had not, if her mind was free to dwell on such things, would epiny forgive me for not coming to visit as i'd said i would? i hoped she would consider my profession and understand. i lifted yet another shovelful of soil.

i promised myself that as soon as i finished the third grave, i would take a rest. i'd make a trip to the spring for cool, fresh water. i was thinking of that longingly as i used the back of the shovel to smooth the mounded soil over the last grave when i heard an ominous sound. it was the rattling of heavy wagons. on the first, driving it slowly, sat kesey, his face swathed against the plague. the wagon rode heavy; there were six coffins stacked in it.

a soldier i didn't know drove the other wagon, equally large. three other soldiers rode in the back, perched on top of a load of lumber. the second wagon halted near my shed. the men jumped down and began unloading their cargo. kesey drove the other wagon slowly toward me. he hadn't even reached me before i saw ebrooks drive up his horse and wagon, similarly laden. kesey pulled his team in. "give me a hand unloading," he requested gruffly.