Chapter 317
Shen Huanzhi officially decided to go back to Dachen to settle down five years after Gu Yun's death. First, he knew that an could take charge alone. Everything on Luzon's side was under his control. In addition, there were a lot of business on Dachen's side. He had to sit in the town in person for more than half a year and simply go back.
Before leaving, Shen Huanzhi specially talked to Ye Ying alone. Ye Ying paid too much for them and everyone carried too heavy things. Now, he should have his own life. He can't give her everything she wants. In addition to being sorry and grateful, he should also give her freedom to choose.
Ye Ying didn't show too much weight or regret, but smiled, "back to Da Chen, I've forgotten what da Chen looks like. How nice Luzon is. Everywhere is my territory. How happy life is. You can go if you want. Don't be like you'll never see me again. Little Shen still needs me."
In fact, ye Yinghuo knows a lot better than him. She always knows and feels at ease. He is confused.
Shen Huanzhi mocked himself. He felt that he was really not so transparent. It made people think more. Ye Ying hasn't mentioned anything to him for so many years. How could he try to give her freedom because of his guilt? It's really stupid.
When leaving, Shen Wei stood side by side with Ye Ying and said, "don't worry, father. What are you worried about with aunt ye? There's nothing that Aunt ye can't do in the whole Luzon. I need her very much, don't I, aunt ye?"
Ye Ying clasped his shoulders with him, "little Shen knows me, but don't you? It's impossible to leave me here. Take care of yourself. Don't forget to come back and have a look."
Shen Huanzhi smiled and waved at them, thinking that Shen Wei was really better at being a man than him. He was so stupid that he had to say nothing.
After a few months of travel, Shen Huan Zhi arrived in Dachen in autumn. He happened to go to Hangzhou to see the old lady first. At this time in previous years, ah Xi usually worshipped her. He thought that since he couldn't meet her, he would stop by to have a look.
Everything needs a process of psychological construction. Shen Huanzhi usually takes a long time to build. After several years, he is still not ready to see her. He is really discouraged. Therefore, it is difficult to change his nature. Even if he has become a respected Master, he is still shy and timid when he has some feelings for some people.
I really don't have a long memory.
Shen Huan Zhi still walked in the village and recalled the past. Then he took some sacrifices to the old lady's grave. He usually seldom carried anything. He usually folded a few white flowers and cleaned them for her. Otherwise, he prepared a pot of wine and sat down to talk to her.
The old lady was the first one he respected in his life. He always felt that a few words with her would make a lot of sense. He was also willing to tell her some of his feelings that were not humane. Before my life, I could always wake him up with one or two words. He benefited a lot from her.
Today, Shen Huanzhi specially prepared something. When he met her 30 years ago, it was probably such a season. Everything around him didn't change much. It's easy to touch the scenery. Therefore, he felt a lot today and brought more food.
Of course, eating food is not all sacrifice, but mainly his own lunch. He always feels that when worshipping, he carries a pile of food. It seems that after death, what people crave is just eating and drinking, but in fact, they can't eat. It's more waste. Therefore, he simply sits on the ground and eats lunch by himself while chatting with the old lady.
"I decided to come back and settle down." Shen Huan's hand held a local unique cake. He forgot his name. He just remembered that he ate it when he was a child and the old lady made it for him. He chewed half of it slowly and said, "in this way, I can often see you in the future. I know you are not alone. Jing Yu and his daughter-in-law will accompany you. It's good."
"But maybe you need someone who can talk to you. Jing Yu is not good at talking. In fact, I am not good at it, but you can probably understand what I say." Shen Huanzhi smiled, "I still haven't seen her. Don't laugh at me. I still can't do it for so many years. You said that you have to fight for some things by yourself. What you earn is your own. I remember."
Shen Huanzhi poured a glass of wine, poured it on the ground as usual, and then poured it himself. "In fact, now, I don't want to earn anything. It's enough to know that she's good."
While drinking, Shen Huan Zhi talked about many interesting childhood stories. He felt like an old mother. He was usually quiet and quiet. He talked more cumbersome than anyone. Unconsciously, noon had passed. Shen Huan Zhi looked up at the sky, cleaned up the sundries in front of him, and was ready to get up and go down the mountain. He was wondering whether to go to see Jing Yu, but when he turned around, he saw a familiar figure.
Shen Huanzhi kind of wanted to go back for a few hours and then smoke his two mouths. Who said that ah Xi must have pinched the time to return to Huainan every year. Is it necessary for him to be so arbitrary? When he came, he came and squatted here, eating, drinking and chatting. He felt like a thief stealing sacrifices. He immediately wanted to find a ground seam to drill in.
"You..." Shen Huanzhi wanted to ask her for a long time, but it was useless. No matter how she answered, Shen Huanzhi felt that she had been listening to him.
He began to think about what he had just said and whether there were any words that couldn't be heard. He thought over and over again. He felt that he didn't want her to hear any sentence, because it seemed that each sentence was more or less related to her.
"Thank you for visiting grandma every year. She will be very happy."
Ah Xi was not surprised at all. It seemed that it was a common thing to see him, and then he burned a incense for the old lady. Shen Huanzhi was so stunned that he couldn't hold anything in his head.
"Should, should, you..." ah Xi suddenly turned back to look at him. Shen Huanzhi almost bit his tongue. He subconsciously stepped back and wanted to keep a distance from her. "This year, I thought you went back."
Shen Huan Zhi slapped himself in the face silently, which was nothing but self deception.
Ah Xi smiled, "Anning is going to give birth, so I'll stay with her for a while."
It's no wonder that Jing Yu's daughter-in-law wants to give birth. It's human nature for ah Xi to stay for a while. Shen Huanzhi wants to abandon himself. Just meet him now.
"That's really a good thing. I'm going to the northwest in a while. It's also convenient to go back with you. If you need any help, just say it."
I don't know if there is an old lady watching. Shen Huanzhi suddenly became enlightened and finally said something on the point. Although he was very nervous, he said it at least.
"Well, Jing Yu is a little busy. You can help him do some farming. Won't it delay you?"
"No, no!" Shen Huanzhi was relaxed and happy. After taking the first step, things went smoothly. He looked back at the old lady's tombstone and suddenly realized that what the old man said was a wise saying.
Jing Yu set up a private school in the village to teach the children in the village to study and read, so the work of his daughter-in-law usually falls on his daughter-in-law. Both of them are proud of their meat. They are very grounded and can start anything after coming to the village for a few years.
Shen huanzhijue's people are very interesting. Some people are looking forward to getting ahead. Some people can leave their wealth and return to their fields. He didn't expect that naughty and ignorant Xiao Jingyu was the best among them when he was a child.
Is this the so-called fool's blessing? Probably.
Jing Yu's daughter-in-law is due to give birth these days. Ah Xi and Jing Yu are inseparable. With ah Xi, Jing Yu can go to school at ease. Now it's more reassuring to bring him as a strong young man.
"Brother Huan, come on!" Jing Yu said to him inexplicably. Shen Huan couldn't cry or laugh. Everyone around him could see it clearly. He was confused.
Three days later, Jingyu's fat boy landed. Jingyu's first sentence at that time was, "Oh, good boy, someone's working."
It made everyone laugh. It was really a real farmer's psychology. His daughter-in-law and boss were not happy. "Can't a girl work? Can't I see because I'm so capable? I still want a girl's, and I'm in trouble again."
Shen Huanzhi watched the excitement of ordinary people. He would argue a few words to give birth to boys and girls and worry about fuel, rice, oil and salt. In fact, it was full of human breath. Unlike them, people were not old and their state of mind had gone through vicissitudes. The blade of the knife had passed half his life. For the rest of his life, he could only look at the square heaven and earth under his feet and dared not ask for anything more.
Jing Yu and his daughter-in-law are very interesting. Every day, they laugh and laugh at home. Shen Huanzhi doesn't live with them, but he is invited to dinner every day, just like when he was a child.
"Brother Huan, this is your favorite fried vegetable when you were a child. Remember, I planted it. Are you very moved!"
Shen Huan sighed. How can he not remember? Because ah Xi made it for him, he remembered clearly. At that time, when he was hungry, ah Xi washed a handful of vegetables and fried them for him to eat.
Because only fried vegetables won't paste. It's the only dish that can be imported. Ah Xi's cooking is terrible. This is the only dish that he can remember the taste, although it's not delicious.
Jingyu spared no effort to set them up. Shen Huanzhi knew it was fried by ah Xi, so he smiled and tasted it and said it was delicious.
It's really better than before, but I still don't dare to compliment. During the period when Jingyu's daughter-in-law can't cook, ah Xi and Jingyu start with each other, and neither sister nor brother can do much better than anyone.
Ah Xi said with a smile, "I think I'll find a girl for this period of time. Ning has to look after the children. It can't be so hard. I'll leave in a few days. What can you do?"
"Elder sister, don't worry. We've always come like this. I don't think you should delay. It's better to go back as soon as it's getting cold."
It's really late. When the weather cools down, Gu Yun's death day is coming.
Shen Huanzhi fulfilled his wish to accompany ah Xi back to Huainan. He was very satisfied that he could accompany her all the way. Although he couldn't say a few words a day, it was relative day and night. After Huainan, Shen Huanzhi didn't stop and went directly to the northwest.
In the following time, Shen Huanzhi was very busy. He soon pressed the short gathering in his heart, turned it out from time to time and tasted it, which seemed to comfort the rest of his life.
When he officially settled in Huainan, it was a year later. Shen Huanzhi didn't struggle or hesitate too much. He wanted to be closer to her, so naturally he bought a house in Huainan and checked in. The house was not far from Feng Dong's house. It happened that he had contact and cooperation with Feng Ji some time ago. On the way, he bothered him to buy the house.
However, she didn't inform ah Xi, but she must know that Shen Huan didn't want to disturb her. Such a distance was good. Then, he continued to be busy with business, chatted with Feng Dong from time to time and listened to a few words about her.
Ah Xi has always been a contented person. His life is very simple and there is nothing worth saying, but it seems that as long as he hears the words about her, it is a satisfaction for him. In the next few days, he can see a smile on his face and have a taste of everything he eats.
Mingyu often buys bittern for ah Xi and says she likes to eat. Shen Huanzhi often sits down and eats the taste she likes, and then it's like she's in front of her. She smiles and smiles. From childhood to now, he remembers clearly and can easily describe it in his mind.
Shen Huanzhi took some to Feng's house by the way. Feng Dong would often bring him food. Probably because he lived a hard life alone, Shen Huanzhi asked casually after he hadn't seen him for a long time recently.
Feng Dong said, "it's Mrs. Gu who has been ill recently. Mingyu hasn't come back in the yard. There's nothing to take. Why don't you come and eat with me."
Ah Xi is ill? Oh, it's Mrs. Gu. Shen Huanzhi put the bittern in Feng Dong's hand, "I'll go and see her."
Feng Dong watched him run away in a hurry with bittern in his hand. He was surprised that he might have said something wrong, but he was wrong. Mingyu always complained that he didn't know how to make a match, which saved him effort.
Ah Xi was caught in the wind and cold, and the delay was more serious. He heard that he was hot for a few days and people often fell asleep, so Mingyu couldn't leave him. Seeing Shen Huan's gone, he was thankful, "master Shen, you came just in time. I'm making medicine. Take care of it for me."
Shen Huanzhi took PA Ziqin in the cold water and replaced the warm one on her forehead. His hands and feet were gentle and carefully wiped her face. Then he found that ah Xi seemed to be thinner than before. Was it because of illness or that she had a bad year.
Shen Huanzhi sat at the head of the bed and looked at her with mixed feelings. When he was in self satisfaction, ah Xi actually didn't live as well, at least not as well as on the surface.
She has been guarding this place for several years and never left. In fact, she can't let go of her obsession. Shen Huanzhi knows better than anyone that he has been bearing the unreachable despair alone. Even those who can see it again can't completely put down everything. It's impossible to say that he doesn't miss it.
Shen Huanzhi suddenly thought that Gu Yun's death day seemed to be coming again. Year after year, it was really fast. Ah Xi had been as if nothing had happened. However, the more calm and wave free, the more heavy the backlog was. Just like people who haven't been ill for a long time, they suddenly became very seriously ill. Ah Xi was probably like this. When she fell ill, her soft heart was vulnerable, She looks very fragile now.
Ah Xi's illness is fierce. Shen Huanzhi is glad that he has come. Fortunately, Mingyu is not so hypocritical this time. She really can't take care of her alone. It seems that she has been defeated by loneliness and missing in recent years, and then it is difficult to slow down. Or she doesn't want to at all. The dead are gone, and the living are hopeless. If it was him, she would probably prefer to die.
A seriously ill person is mostly fighting for his life with heaven, but if he doesn't want to fight, Shen Huanzhi has some sad thoughts. Does ah Xi no longer have hope, and would she rather die?
What would happen if she didn't come back? Shen Huanzhi didn't find out how ridiculous his so-called guard company was until now. Did he approach her at all? In fact, he didn't. He was abandoned by her like others. How can he guard and accompany? Even less than Mingyu, at least she followed her heart from beginning to end, instead of all the people who cared about her.
And even if ah Xi doesn't want to come back, he can't do anything. This is a desperate cognition. Shen Huan thinks that he is really a loser.
If ah Xi is still willing to come back, Shen Huanzhi is so extravagant. He wants to help her out of this despair. If not, he can at least give comfort so that she won't suffer so much. She can continue to guard the people in her heart, and he should also guard his own heart. In fact, they can rely on each other for the rest of their lives.