Chapter 149
"Oh." I nodded gently, and then said, "doctor, do you care about my age when you treat other people's diseases?"
"Are you a doctor or am I a doctor?" he was angry and ashamed.
"You are." still like that, Shangguan Yu, it seems that it is Shangguan Yu met by Qinhuai again.
Doctors are the same. The doctor yelled at me just now, and now he does.
Can't I speak if I'm not a doctor? Don't even ask, I smiled softly in my heart.
Fate, let me miss him, I want to open now.
Don't think about love, or the best. Your heart is as wide as heaven and earth, as clear as understanding. How free it is.
He asked some more things, that is, it was really the doctor's state of mind, and said Qu'er's address. He wrote them down one by one.
Then, there is only silence, lying in the middle.
After a while, he held out his hand and put it in front of me. His slender and powerful hand was very beautiful.
I asked, "what?"
"Seek gold." the voice of cold anger.
Take the money if you take the money. What's the fire? I also said that if you don't come today, he wants me to come in.
He took out the two ingots and put them on the table.
He accepted it impolitely: "in a few days, the doctor over there will come to see him."
"Oh, thank you," I said softly.
"You probably need a lot of precious drugs. You don't have enough money." he raised his eyebrow.
Then I took out all my silver and put it on the table in small pieces.
He shook his head, and I searched again. In the end, even all my valuables were on the table.
Even handkerchiefs are put together. And the black jade hairpin given by the prince. When I put my paintbrush, earrings and a few beads on my head, I found that I could put many of these things on me.
"I only have these things," he smiled quietly
He squinted, provoked the black jade hairpin and looked at the Yin and Yang poles above.
"Think through, think about it." he asked with an eyebrow.
I nodded: "I want to open."
The grapes are so tempting that I reach out to pick one and eat it. The sour and sweet taste is very good.
He didn't stop it. I ate it quietly while he observed those things.
He shook his head again. "It's not enough."
I was stunned: "I have only these. Do you want a string of heavenly beads?" maybe it's better. I can never think about it again and worry about it again.
He raised his eyes, full of anger: "you dare."
To my surprise, the newly imported grapes almost didn't swallow all of them down my throat.
I smiled bitterly: "that's enough, Shangguan. This is the end of the game. I owe you. I'm not clear in my life. I'll pay it back in my next life. That's all I can have."
"Take your heart," he cried, his eyes red.
I looked at him as if my heart had stopped. The grapes in my mouth opened, and the sour taste surged into my heart.
"Ni chuxue, you can't think that's enough." he stared at me: "my first love, how can I let go."
I smiled, full of acid: "I don't deserve it."
"I haven't given up on you yet," he shouted.
In my eyes, there was an upsurge slowly. I looked at the roof and didn't let my tears flow down.
"I haven't given you up yet," he whispered. "How can you give up. I haven't said it yet if I want to say no to you."
I thought I didn't have to say it. I tried to debug my heart, but I still couldn't face him.
"You have to give me time," he said painfully.
I beat my forehead: "I don't want to talk about love anymore. I'm too tired, too tired and too hard. I admit that I'm timid. I'm a woman. You can let me have a look."
"No," he said bitterly, "I've thought a lot in these days of torture."
"I'm sorry." my heart is aching. "It's all my fault."
"It's none of your business." he shouted coldly: "it's ruofeng's fault, it's Daliao's conspiracy."
I was stunned and looked at him. He breathed out: "Lin came to me yesterday."
Alas, Lin Pei, I sighed secretly. He arranged all this.
"So what? I can't change it any more. I'm already light hearted and don't want to mention it again. I'm light hearted, I'm selfish and don't want to turn around again." helpless.
He stood up, walked to the window and turned his back to me. His back was so familiar.
I smiled and stood up. I can face it, I can. It's time to be satisfied. No matter how much, I still dare not think about it.
To open the door, he grabbed me and held me tightly in his arms.
As if to melt me into his bones, I closed my eyes and shed tears.
Falling on his hand, he held my head and whispered, "chuxue, give me some time. I really don't want to give up you."
"Don't embarrass you, really." I broke his hand.
He shook his head: "chuxue, why not?"
I was surprised: "Shangguan, don't ask again. Do you want an unfaithful and unclean person with no status to be a young lady?"
He didn't speak, I smiled softly.
Turning around and looking at him, his fingers scratched on his face: "Shangguan, don't be sad. It's my fault, it's my fault, really. Don't be sad. You have your happiness. You, our difficulties are too many, too heavy, doomed, we can't be together. Princess Yuzhen likes you very much."
If you manage this job well, you will also be happy.
"You're selfish," he cried, grasping my hand and biting.
The pain makes me gasp. God, he really bites. It hurts.
I looked at him pitifully, and he opened his mouth: "chuxue, forgive me, that slap, I didn't mean to hit you."
I chuckled: "it's over, don't mention it."
"You hit me back." he grabbed my hand and hit him in the face.
Where can I? Pull back hard.
Body, so close, he still hugged me with one hand. Face, close to face.
I turned away and my face turned red again. Trying to struggle, he held it tighter.
Breath, spray on my face, I'm so upset.
His face closer and closer, said in my ear: "chuxue, give me some time, I won't give up you, and you don't give up, okay?"
Such a weak voice doesn't look like a high spirited Shangguan Yu at all.
He put his forehead against mine: "say yes."
I looked into his eyes as he pleaded and was strong.
It's not easy for him to accumulate so much struggle and pain.
There is a relaxed relief, which is released in my heart.
I smiled, "give me my things back."
He smiled, his face pressed against my face, and something hot fell on my forehead. I wanted to look up, but he pressed it strongly.
"Wearing too much clothes and sweating," he said.
I smiled and burst into tears. I gently hugged him on the waist with one hand: "the doctor should take care of his body."
Warm embrace, familiar taste, this embrace, will it still be mine in the future?
I'd better think about tomorrow. I don't want to worry about it now.
It turned out that such closeness can untie a lot of pain and sighs in the heart and fly away in the brain.
"Shangguan young master." the waiter knocked gently at the door: "the girl singing songs in Huahong building is coming. Do you want to invite her in or prepare a carriage to go out."
He let me go, cleared his throat and said, "let her go back."
"Yes, young master." the waiter walked obediently.
"It's good to listen to music." I said softly and looked at the embroidered shoes.
He whispered, "if you're in a bad mood those days, just listen to the music."
"That's not bad. Life should be comfortable." I packed up the things on the table and put them back one by one.
"Are you angry?" he whispered.
I shook my head. "I'm not angry or agree. That's it."
"Are you still in a hurry?"
I couldn't help laughing: "Shangguan doctor, is there anything else that hasn't been explained clearly? I haven't bought the medicine. The diagnosis fee has been paid, and I have to go back to the palace."
"Chuxue, tell me if you will give up." he looked straight into my eyes.
I thought and said, "what do you say?"
I don't want to give up, because he is too good, but I don't deserve it. Although I am not a fool, I also have my ideas. Influenced by poetry and books, it is not a day or two.
However, if I really give up, I will say that I like the seventh prince.
Just one word can break his struggle, enough to cut off all.
He needs time, and so do I.
"I don't know what you're thinking? It's like the wind. You can't catch it. That's it. How about going to dinner first?"
I thought about it and nodded. This is Lin Pei's painstaking efforts and good intentions.
Isn't it a lot easier for me now?
Am I like the wind? I thought I was a tree, let the wind blow.
I followed him. He wanted to stop and wait for me.
I stopped again and told him to wait. When he left, I left. He stops and I stop.
Always, keep a certain distance.
In fact, he and I need time, but we want to meet again. How can we struggle to cut our heart in half and separate it again.
"Right here," I said.
It was a small noodle stall set up by an elderly woman on the roadside. Not far away, it was a beautifully decorated restaurant.
He wants to go there, but I don't.
"What would you like to eat, girl?" the woman asked enthusiastically.
I sat down and said, "help yourself to some noodles."
What did Shangguan Yu say? Sit opposite me, too.
Some puzzled, still didn't ask. I sat quietly. I washed his cup and poured tea.
"Chu Xue, talk!" he said, helpless.
I lifted the hair that the wind blew on my cheek and smiled at him: "occasionally, it's good to eat some light food."
"Chuxue, don't play tricks for me. I don't like it. You just say what you mean." he looked at me with struggle and pain in his eyes.
I shook my head: "I never play such tricks with you."