32 Why did he feel this way? I
"If our water has run out or if I am delirious because of this fever, don't hesitate to kill me."
"Kill you? I haven't even killed a bunny in my life and you want me to kill you in cold-blood?" Yang was taken by surprise but then exclaimed in protest.
"It's the quickest way to restart the trial and lessen the sufferings." She closed her eyes as she explained this.
"But-"
"No buts. It's my life and my choice, understand?" The Ice God opened her eyes and stared at the Fire God with a cold authority that left no room for deviant opinions.
"I understand." He forced out and clenched his hands beside him.
Of course her reasoning was flawless, but she didn't really take account his feelings. He had never ever killed someone and she asked him to commit the act just like that?
In order to not explode in the vicinity of Yin, he picked up a water bag as he stood up and left their temporary home. The sun was now a pain in the ass, but still a better pain in the ass than the crazy woman at the moment.
He walked around searching for any sign of water, but all he could see was rocks of different shapes and some cactuses.
In frustration, he kicked a cactus, but quickly regretted it as he felt the thorns in his sole.
In anger of his reckless behaviour, he kicked a large stone instead, but it was so firm that his foot hurt.
In rage of everything, he cursed the desert and the crazy woman, but realized that his heart somehow ached.
He took a gulp of the water he carried.
Why did he feel this way?
Why did he care?
As if his subconsciousness wanted to help him, he saw an image of the culprit to his state. She was truly a beauty with her long black hair and ocean-blue eyes. Yet she wasn't smiling.
Now that he thought of it, had he ever seen her smile? He frowned deeply as he attempted to recall. As he went through every memory with her, Yang realized that he had never truly seen her smile. She always had her cold and detached countenance on.
Had she no joy in life? Or was it taken from her?
He then thought of his recent discoveries concerning Yin.
Was it connected to her strong reactions to physical contact?