i turn to miller. 'we should go,' i prompt, pushing my hands into his chest. 'miller.'

he's just staring at gregory and ben, brows heavy, lips straight. 'i have a cheque for your work on the roof terrace in my office, greg.'

'mr hart.' gregory nods, his face flushing.

'and i have one for you, too.' miller looks to ben, who's clearly mortified. i feel for them both, and i hate miller for making them feel so small. 'i would kindly ask you not to use the washrooms of my club as a knocking shop. this is a private, exclusive establishment. your respect would be greatly appreciated.'

i nearly choke. respect? he's just had his hand up my dress in the middle of the dance floor. i need to leave before i gun for one of these three men. i have a grievance with them all. i let myself out, shocked by so many things in such a short space of time. my head is swimming with alcohol, the feeling of losing control beginning to worry me.

as i stagger down the corridor, i see a man approaching, his roving eye trailing lustfully up and down my body. i know that look. and i don't like it. it's smarmy. he brushes past me and smirks. 'i've been watching you,' he purrs, eyes burning with want.

i should continue walking, but flashbacks have halted my movements, my brain not prepared to home in on any instructions to make me walk away and is instead making me see things stored at the back of my mind that i've hidden for many years.

he growls and pushes me into the wall. i freeze. nothing will work. then he smashes his lips to mine and the bad memories multiply, but before i have a chance to find the mental and physical strength to fight him off, he's absent and i'm left heaving, propped up against the wall, watching miller physically restrain the struggling man.

'what the f**k?' the guy yells. 'get the f**k off me!'

miller calmly removes his iphone from his pocket and presses just one button. 'outer on floor one. toilets.'

the guy continues to struggle, but he's held firmly in place with little effort from miller, who's staring at me, his face completely impassive. but he's mad. i can see it in the steely gloss of his blue eyes. there's rage - hot rage, and i'm not at all comfortable seeing it. i start an unsteady walk away, moving to the side of the corridor when two huge doormen come barrelling towards me. i glance over my shoulder to weigh up my situation and see them take over miller's hold of the guy, leaving miller to straighten his shirt and waistcoat before his eyes lift and find mine. he's fuming, a telling sweat shimmering on his brow. he starts to shake his head slowly as he strides forward, his hair now falling onto his forehead from his exertion. i know i won't get far, but i'll make it to the bar. i need another drink, so i hurry, quickly reaching my intended destination and ordering a champagne, necking it before the empty is snatched from my grasp and his hand is locked on my nape, leading me away, my feet moving fast to keep up with his long strides behind me.

'you're not getting your four hours!' i shout desperately.

'i don't f**king want them,' he growls, roughly pushing me on. the declaration pricks at my chest repeatedly.

many people nod, smile, and speak to miller as he pushes me through the bar, but he doesn't stop for anyone, not even acknowledging them. i can't see his face to confirm it, but the wary looks on all of the faces we pass tell me all i need to know. his grip of my neck is tight over my hair, and he makes no attempt to ease up, even though he must be aware of the pressure of it. we're heading for the entrance of the bar, the glow of big glass doors coming into view with people still lining up to gain entry.

something catches my eye and i do a double-take, spotting miller's business associate. she's staring open-mouthed at miller manhandling me, her drink at her lips ready to sip, clearly shocked by what she's witnessing. even through my tipsiness, i manage for the first time to wonder what miller is telling her about me.

'livy!' i hear gregory from behind and try to turn, to no avail.

'keep walking,' he orders.

'livy!'

miller halts and swings around, taking me with him. 'she's coming with me.'

'no.' gregory shakes his head, moving forward, looking at me. 'coffee-hater?' he asks and i nod, making gregory's face flame with guilt. he fed me to the lion, and then skulked off to have his later with ben.

'miller,' i answer, confirming he is exactly who gregory thinks, but wondering how he didn't know that already if he's been working for him.

'you can stay and have a drink,' miller says calmly, 'or i can have you removed from my club - your choice.' miller's words, although calm, are threatening, but i have no doubt that he'll follow through on his threat.

'if i'm leaving, then livy's coming with me.'

'wrong.' miller fires back simply and confidently. 'your lover will probably ask you to do the sensible thing and let me take her.' he's playing dirty.

ben appears from behind gregory, his face washed out and full of apprehension. 'what are you going to do?' he asks miller.

'that depends on whether you make a big deal of this. i'm going to my office with olivia, and you two are going back to the bar to enjoy a drink on me.'

gregory and ben both flick cautious eyes to me and miller, both clearly in turmoil. it makes me speak up.

'i'm okay,' i say quietly. 'go have a drink.'

'no.' gregory steps forward. 'not after what you've told me, livy.'

'i'm okay,' i repeat slowly, before looking up at miller in a silent indication to lead on. his grip eases instantly, his anger receding, and his fingers start kneading my flesh, working some life back into the stiffness.

'miller?'

i cast my eyes to the left and see the woman. she's followed us and her cherry-red, pursed lips tell me she recognises me despite the makeover. then i look up to miller. he looks totally detached as he stares at her. this is awkward, the tension ricocheting between all five of us tangible, and for very different reasons. i feel like an interloper, but it doesn't stop me from letting miller guide me away from the awful scene.

he's silent as he leads me down some stairs and through a maze of corridors until we're at a door, where he curses while bashing in a code on the metal keypad before pushing his way through. i expect to be released after he's kicked it shut, but he doesn't let up, instead directing me to a big white desk and spinning me around. he pushes me onto my back, pulls my thighs apart and lays himself all over me, grabbing my cheeks in his hands and forcing his lips to mine, his tongue pushing past and starting an impossibly smooth rotation in my mouth. i want to ask him what the hell he's doing, but i know i'm going to savour this. i won't, however, savour the heated words that i know will be exchanged following this kiss, so i accept it. i accept him. with this kiss, i'm accepting everything that he has done tonight and before that, when he's played with my heart - filled it, and then quickly drained it again, leaving it a mass of aching muscle in my chest.

he moans, and my hands skate their way up his back until they're resting on the back of his head, pushing him in closer to me. 'i'm not letting you do this to me again,' i mumble weakly around his lips.

his mouth working mine doesn't let up, and i don't try to stop him, despite my words. 'i don't think it's a matter of letting me, livy.' he pushes his groin into my core, putting more friction on my pulsing flesh. i whimper, searching for the willpower to stop this. 'this is happening.' he bites my lip and sucks it, pulling back and looking down at me. he moves my hair from my face. 'we've already accepted this. it can't be stopped.'

'i can stop it, just like you have plenty of times,' i breathe on a whisper. 'i should stop it.'

'no, you shouldn't. i won't let you, and i should never have stopped it either.' his eyes run over my face and he dips, kissing me tenderly. 'what has happened to you, my sweet girl?'

'you,' i accuse. 'you've happened to me.' he's made me reckless and irrational. he may make me feel alive, but he makes me feel lifeless just as quickly. i'm playing the devil's advocate with this man disguised as a gentleman, and i hate myself for not being stronger, for not stopping it. how many times can i do this to myself, and how many times will he do this to me?

'i don't like this.' he pulls my hand from his back and looks down at my red nail polish. 'and i don't like this.' he drags his thumb over my red lips as he watches me. 'i want my livy back.'

'your livy?' my brain engages fast, my heartbeat quickening. he wants the old livy back so he can walk all over her again. is that it? 'i'm not yours.'

'wrong. you are very much mine.' he pushes himself up and clasps my hand, pulling me up to a sitting position. 'i'm leaving this office to tell your friend that you're coming home with me. he's going to want to speak to you, so you'll answer your phone when he calls.'

'i'm coming?' i slip off the desk, and he immediately places me back on it.

'no.' he points over my shoulder. 'you're going into that bathroom, and you're going to remove that shit from your face.'

i recoil, but he's not perturbed. 'are you going to go out there and tell that woman that i'm going home with you?' i grate, anger bubbling as he watches me closely.

'yes,' he answers simply and swiftly. just yes? i have nothing to say to that, drunkenness blocking all rational thinking, and when he's finished studying my dumbstruck face he walks out, shutting the door behind him. i know i hear a lock click into place, so i jump down from his desk and run over to the door, jiggling the handle, fully aware that i'm wasting my time. he's locked me in.

i don't go to the bathroom; i go to the glass drinks cabinet, seeing some champagne on ice and two used glasses, neatly placed at just the right angle. that's miller's doing, but the rim of one glass caked in cherry-red lipstick isn't. i start to shake with fury and grab a glass, pouring in some champagne and downing it before refilling my glass and tipping that down quickly, too. i'm drunk enough, i don't need this, but control is slipping rapidly away.

just as miller promised, my phone starts bleeping from my bag and i retrieve it from the desk, fishing around and finding gregory's name on the screen. 'hello.' i try to sound cool and collected, when i want to scream down the phone, vent and lash out.

'you're leaving with him?'

'i'm okay.' i don't need to be worrying him further, and i definitely won't be leaving with miller. 'you didn't know his name?'

'no,' he sighs. 'just mr hart, uptight f**ker.'

'you told me to let him take me on the dance floor!'

'that's because he's f**king hot!'

'or so you could have your later with ben?'

'a little dance, that's all. i wouldn't have let it go further.'

'you did!'

'i have no excuse,' he mumbles. 'i'm pissed off, but regardless of that, it's a moot f**king point now, isn't it? he's the f**king coffee-hater and you're already in love with the jumped-up twat!'

'he's not a twat!' i don't know what i'm saying. i can think of far harsher words to use and miller would be all of them right now.

'i don't like this,' gregory grunts.