i made a morning of heating water, washing my clothes and myself, and stringing a clothesline inside my cabin to dry my clothing. i put on my cavalla hat, a jacket that would not button, and a shirt and a pair of trousers still damp from washing. i built up the fire in the vain hope that the rest of my clothing would be dry when i returned, saddled up a disgruntled clove, and rode back to gettys.

my cavalla hat was my admission though the gates. i went back to colonel haren's office. i had no success in getting in to see him. when i told his desk sergeant that i wanted to request supplies to build a shelter for my horse, he seemed shocked that i'd have the ambition for such a task. he filled out a requisition form for me, acquiescing to everything i asked him for, but taking such a long time to do it that i felt i'd spent half my life in the office before he gave it to me. i told him that i wished to speak to the colonel about creating a supply of coffins against the projected need in plague time, and that i wished to discuss the wisdom of digging graves beforehand.

his smile might have been a grimace. "well, aren't you the ambitious one? do what you think needs doing, soldier. either no one will notice it, or someone will complain about it." he smiled at his own jest and sent me on my way.

the supply sergeant took the requisition form from me, glanced at it, and then told me to help myself to what i needed in the warehouse. when i asked for the use of a wagon to haul it, he shrugged and told me again to take what i needed. the warehouse was worse. i finally found the men on duty behind the warehouse, leaning against the back wall and smoking. three of the four were bony plague survivors. i doubted they had the muscle to lift a hammer. i showed them my form, and they told me, as the sergeant had, that i might take what i needed. in the end, that was what i did. i found a cart and a heavy harness, stiff with disuse. i put patient clove between the traces. the lumber was of poor quality, the nail kegs were jumbled together, and there was no order to any of it. i took what i wanted, including corn, oats, a sack of hay, and a currying brush for clove, and loaded it all myself. when i was finished, i found the warehouse sergeant out at the back with his men. i asked him if he'd like to inventory what i'd taken. "i'll trust you," he replied, and did not even walk around to look at the laden wagon. it seemed to tax his ambition to walk as far as his untidy office, where he put a sloppy signature on my form and thrust it back at me. i left there feeling vaguely insulted by the whole procedure.

before i left town, i took my letter to the dispatch office and paid a breathtaking fee to have it delivered. then i went to the infirmary to visit hitch again. he was much as he had been the day before. when i complained about how slack discipline seemed at gettys and the apathetic warehouse men, he grinned lazily. he motioned me closer to his bedside, as if to tell me a secret, and then said softly, "they danced it out of us, lad. you went to the end of the road, didn't you?"

"yes, i did. i didn't find it humorous, hitch."

"that's lieutenant hitch, soldier!" he said sharply, and when i flinched, he laughed softly. "you should see what happens every time they try to send a road work crew into the forest. half of them can't remember their own names by the day's end, and in a week, you might get a day's worth of work done. try it sometime yourself. go walking into the forest. you'll feel it. you feel it already, i'll wager. i'm surprised you had the sand to get this far."

he lay back in his bed and let his eyes droop closed. "don't fight it, never. there's no point in fighting it. your pay's the same whether you work or slack. relax, trooper."

i put it down to the laudanum. as i stood up to leave, he reminded me, "hey. you didn't salute me when you came in."

i could not tell if his words were a rebuke or a jest. i stood and gave him my best salute. he rewarded me with a faint laugh and a feeble wave of his hand.

i pulled my coat tighter around me as i emerged onto the windswept street. if this were a foretaste of winter, i'd soon need to do something about my wardrobe. the bleakness of gettys struck me all over again. everywhere i looked, neglect met my eyes. weeds straggled along the sides of the street. the paint was peeling from the fronts of the buildings, and shutters hung crookedly. although people moved on the streets, there was no bustle. a young soldier, his shirt stained with old gravy, walked past me, his eyes on the ground. i wondered if morale was always so low at this post, or if the stormy weather were to blame.

the lone exception was a young woman in a blue gown with voluminous skirts. the wind had pressed her skirts against her legs, effectively hobbling her. she wore a heavy black cloak as well, and this the wind whipped wildly. she was struggling with it and a market basket she carried, and did not notice my scrutiny. "drat!" she exclaimed sharply when the wind wrenched the garment free of her. it took flight down the street like a crippled blackbird, and she raced after it and captured it by making a wild leap and landing on it with both feet. as she picked up the flapping cloak from the muddy ground, i suddenly recognized her. epiny. my cousin was older than when i had last seen her. a moment later, i revised that. no. she was dressing as a woman now, but if she had matured in any way, it did not show.